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Anybody Wanna Have a Pity Party with me?
Crashed my car the night before last - had to rent a car and get it towed to the shop. I think it's six months old. Like having the husband die, my son totaling my SUV and getting into all sorts of trouble on a daily basis, my dad having cancer and not being able to pay my bills wasn't enough already!
I wanna have a serious pity party - I mean desperately!
Eat ice cream, watch movies that make you cry (gosh I wish we could have wine!!!)
Anybody else feeling down in the dumps and sorry for themselves lately...come on in and whine with me!!!!!!!!!!!! WHINE WHINE WHINE...........................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can sure have that kind!
I wanna have a serious pity party - I mean desperately!
Eat ice cream, watch movies that make you cry (gosh I wish we could have wine!!!)
Anybody else feeling down in the dumps and sorry for themselves lately...come on in and whine with me!!!!!!!!!!!! WHINE WHINE WHINE...........................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can sure have that kind!
Well I'm supposed to be going to work right now but couldn't resist this one. My heart goes out to NYGirl and all of you going thru rough times that just seem to keep getting worse. My life is good right now (knock on wood!) but I so know that feeling of, What next???
In 2001... my 9 yr relationship w/ kid's dad ends, single for 1st time in "adult" life, major $$ issues, squirrels in the walls of my OLD house, sewer line breaks out in back yard, car's engine blows, I'm whining about all this like it's the end of the world... spring comes... kid's dad OD's and dies, now I really have something to whine about, kids are young enough to expect life to go on as usual, I'm in shock and devastated, "Mr Wrong" comes along and is a perfect distraction, in my state I mistake him for someone I should marry, Mr Wrong turns out to be an internet pervert, I lose my job of 4 yrs, I'm drinking again after 7 yrs clean & sober, get rid of Mr Wrong, deal with all this by developing a HUGE narcotic pill habit, finally get some help and meet Mr Right. What strikes me about my saga, however, is most of it is self-inflicted. Which makes me feel kinda guilty cuz many of you have NOT asked for ANY of what happened to you. My hubby for example- aka Mr Right- gets together with me in spring 2004, moves in with me & kids in June- major change, in Oct. his Mom is dx'ed with lung cancer, given 1 year to live, he's devastated, his son begins getting in trouble, his ex is a nutcase who only makes it worse, his Mom is struggling through every chemo imaginable and it weighs heavy on his heart, son is into drugs and hanging out with the "gangstas", Jan 06- son get arrested for murder though he's not at the scene, goes to prison at age 17 (is kept in isolation til 18th B-Day), hubby's Mom is still hanging on but in/out of hospital & nursing home at times, Oct 06, we get married and this is the last time his Mom attends any event, she enters nursing home after being in hospital for Thanksgiving, March 07, hubby gets mysterious pain in URQ, doc thinks something major is wrong, March 22 his Mom dies, hubby's pain is pleurisy and turns out to be benign, Mom is finally out of pain and in Heaven, and son is holding his own in prison, awaiting sentencing. Now I have to pressure him into bx and tx cause his bloodwork isn't looking too great. But life goes on.... and gets better eventually...
You're all in my prayers- it will change for the better, I know it.
-Dee
In 2001... my 9 yr relationship w/ kid's dad ends, single for 1st time in "adult" life, major $$ issues, squirrels in the walls of my OLD house, sewer line breaks out in back yard, car's engine blows, I'm whining about all this like it's the end of the world... spring comes... kid's dad OD's and dies, now I really have something to whine about, kids are young enough to expect life to go on as usual, I'm in shock and devastated, "Mr Wrong" comes along and is a perfect distraction, in my state I mistake him for someone I should marry, Mr Wrong turns out to be an internet pervert, I lose my job of 4 yrs, I'm drinking again after 7 yrs clean & sober, get rid of Mr Wrong, deal with all this by developing a HUGE narcotic pill habit, finally get some help and meet Mr Right. What strikes me about my saga, however, is most of it is self-inflicted. Which makes me feel kinda guilty cuz many of you have NOT asked for ANY of what happened to you. My hubby for example- aka Mr Right- gets together with me in spring 2004, moves in with me & kids in June- major change, in Oct. his Mom is dx'ed with lung cancer, given 1 year to live, he's devastated, his son begins getting in trouble, his ex is a nutcase who only makes it worse, his Mom is struggling through every chemo imaginable and it weighs heavy on his heart, son is into drugs and hanging out with the "gangstas", Jan 06- son get arrested for murder though he's not at the scene, goes to prison at age 17 (is kept in isolation til 18th B-Day), hubby's Mom is still hanging on but in/out of hospital & nursing home at times, Oct 06, we get married and this is the last time his Mom attends any event, she enters nursing home after being in hospital for Thanksgiving, March 07, hubby gets mysterious pain in URQ, doc thinks something major is wrong, March 22 his Mom dies, hubby's pain is pleurisy and turns out to be benign, Mom is finally out of pain and in Heaven, and son is holding his own in prison, awaiting sentencing. Now I have to pressure him into bx and tx cause his bloodwork isn't looking too great. But life goes on.... and gets better eventually...
You're all in my prayers- it will change for the better, I know it.
-Dee
my latest whine- the best witness I had in my rape case is afraid to come forward. The rapist confessed to him and me, but has also threatened him with some parole violations that he apparently knows about. This is the rapist that gave me hepc, for any of you unacquainted with the situation. So... if he comes forward, it could likely end up getting him sent to jail. Without him, the case is kind of a he said she said. Trying to stay upbeat but this news was pretty sucky. Ok, and thats the last whine you'll get from me until I become a big whiney baby if the tx hits me hard.
sorry about your car/life, the good news is, if you take your ribavirin with that ice cream it will absorb better!!! !!!!!!
Of course, that may give you more to "whine" about. ah, well, such is life.
I take it you were not hurt in the crash?? this at least is good news, yes??
Pass the dove bars!!!
Of course, that may give you more to "whine" about. ah, well, such is life.
I take it you were not hurt in the crash?? this at least is good news, yes??
Pass the dove bars!!!
"This will sound odd but HCV is so lucky to have 175 Million infected people becuase there's money in those numbers for the drug companies. Not true with CF."
You know what, that's very true. Some disorders are even more rare and you can just gitfu. Its not going to happen. Pharma companies are not going to help with these rare disorders unless its by accident.
Does CF ever receive the benefits of tangential research done for other lung problems via the Lung Association - or does the Lung Association lobby for CF very well? I know that its a very difficult disease, my heart goes out...
You know what, that's very true. Some disorders are even more rare and you can just gitfu. Its not going to happen. Pharma companies are not going to help with these rare disorders unless its by accident.
Does CF ever receive the benefits of tangential research done for other lung problems via the Lung Association - or does the Lung Association lobby for CF very well? I know that its a very difficult disease, my heart goes out...
But hey, than you'd climb up the pity party ladder if you had to be butt up awhile :}
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Thanks for the invite to the pity party. Don't you just hate those curve balls. You & your son have both been through so much recently. Kids react differently and and don't think. Maybe some time alone together doing something like rock climbing, or going to a rock concert together, or go see spam alot. Tell him you love him, give him hugs, leave him a note. My daughter and I once kept a journal together. One night I asked her to write down a question and I would respond, then the next night I would leave it on her pillow and ask her a question. Ir was a way for us to communicate and now years later we have 3 journals that she reads over and over.I found It's okay not to have the answers and it's alright to say ,"I don't know!, what do you think?" Just remind them and yourself, no matter how angry I get I will always love you. Sorry for the long preachy response.
Hugs & Peace to you.
Now for my whine I am still not Und, going on week 20, I stumbled & proudly did a 5 point roll, but looks like I tore my miniscus. MRI next week. something has to go right eventually. Keep the faith or like they said in the 60's "Keep on Truckin"
Teri
Hugs & Peace to you.
Now for my whine I am still not Und, going on week 20, I stumbled & proudly did a 5 point roll, but looks like I tore my miniscus. MRI next week. something has to go right eventually. Keep the faith or like they said in the 60's "Keep on Truckin"
Teri
You have been through alot, and you will even more. The challenges you face make you become the person God wants you to be. Life is hard I'll give you that, been to hell and back myself but I keep trudging and God gets me through it and along the way I am thankful for the blessings I receive.
If I thought of the pain and suffering I would lose focus of the good stuff, the simple stuff.
So please have faith the in time God takes care of everything and life is good.
If I thought of the pain and suffering I would lose focus of the good stuff, the simple stuff.
So please have faith the in time God takes care of everything and life is good.
momma said Life is like a box of chocolate's...........Ya never know what your going to get
Whenever I'm tempted to feel sorry for myself I remember all those people in the hospital with no legs who cannot walk and all those kids in Rwanda with no food. My godmother used to say: things could be worse, you could be in hell with your back broken. I always remember that. Then I start counting my blessings and things improve.
been wondering about you, glad you checked in...sometimes when I'm freaked out about this, I think of people like you, and you can still laugh and be happy some times, in spite of it all...one of my favorite sayings, "be joyful, though you've considered all the facts..." you inspire people here...
One of those bees stung my finger while I was killing them. Am I climbing the ladder of distress any? Mike
I'm late for this pity party because I've been out of town, up in the north part of the state. But, I'm joining in anyway!
Let's see-no SVR after trying and trying and trying - up to 9 times as of last count.
My only child-a son, is seriously mentally ill and has spent 75% of his life having to life it in an institution of some sort. But,....praise God-he's been having some good days lately.
I'm married, but I've never had the blessing of having a 'normal marriage' as my 1st husband ditched my son and I when he was 2 years old. My husband #2 was so busy living with his mother and father and deciding to take care of them, that he never had any interest in living with me. Then, 15 years into our marriage, when I'm in my 'set in your ways-routine', his parents are gone, and we can't seem to get along good enough to live together....
Other than that...I'm blessed in that, I have a roof over my head, I have food to eat, loving friends and family...I have indoor plumbing and a telephone that is functional and I have electricity and I have clothes to wear and a bed to sleep in and I have eyes to see and ears to hear and somewhat of a mind left...although on some days that's debatable!! Anyway, I try to find some things to be feeling thankful for, or otherwise, I get down and blue and start thinking about how alone I feel.
Some days I feel more positive and other days, I feel very depressed. But, that's how it is for all of us, I think. One day at a time....
Susan
Let's see-no SVR after trying and trying and trying - up to 9 times as of last count.
My only child-a son, is seriously mentally ill and has spent 75% of his life having to life it in an institution of some sort. But,....praise God-he's been having some good days lately.
I'm married, but I've never had the blessing of having a 'normal marriage' as my 1st husband ditched my son and I when he was 2 years old. My husband #2 was so busy living with his mother and father and deciding to take care of them, that he never had any interest in living with me. Then, 15 years into our marriage, when I'm in my 'set in your ways-routine', his parents are gone, and we can't seem to get along good enough to live together....
Other than that...I'm blessed in that, I have a roof over my head, I have food to eat, loving friends and family...I have indoor plumbing and a telephone that is functional and I have electricity and I have clothes to wear and a bed to sleep in and I have eyes to see and ears to hear and somewhat of a mind left...although on some days that's debatable!! Anyway, I try to find some things to be feeling thankful for, or otherwise, I get down and blue and start thinking about how alone I feel.
Some days I feel more positive and other days, I feel very depressed. But, that's how it is for all of us, I think. One day at a time....
Susan
So sorry to hear about the auto accident. Why don't you treat yourself to a nice massage today? It will help you feel better.
I heard on the t.v. last night that this lady writes down all her blessings every day and they just keep multiplying. It really works. Hope the clouds clear and the sun shines again soon.
Also, thanks for the invite to your party.
To say the least you've been through a lot by any standard. You didn't ask for any of this but for some reason you're being dealt some ugly cards by life.
I've posted here that my son was diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis (CF) about 10 years ago. On that day I thought my life ended. Anger is easier for me to show than hurt so for about 6 months I was mad at God, life, everything.
A very good friend witha daughter with Downs Syndrome called one day to say that I've been elected to a club wherther I like it or not. In his family's case they chose to raise their daughter maninstream and normal as possible. I chose to fight back by raising money for the CF Foundation for research for better treatments and a cure for the 30,000 kids with CF. This will sound odd but HCV is so lucky to have 175 Million infected people becuase there's money in those numbers for the drug companies. Not true with CF.
I'm sorry about all the ugly life cards being dealt to you right now. I'm espescially sorry about you losing your husband.
Through my ordeal with my son and with my HCV I've tried very hard to turn lemons into lemonade. It doesn't happen overnight; some days are better than ever; sometimes shxx just happens.
Ben & Jerry's new Turtle Sundae is one of my favorites.
Mike
To say the least you've been through a lot by any standard. You didn't ask for any of this but for some reason you're being dealt some ugly cards by life.
I've posted here that my son was diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis (CF) about 10 years ago. On that day I thought my life ended. Anger is easier for me to show than hurt so for about 6 months I was mad at God, life, everything.
A very good friend witha daughter with Downs Syndrome called one day to say that I've been elected to a club wherther I like it or not. In his family's case they chose to raise their daughter maninstream and normal as possible. I chose to fight back by raising money for the CF Foundation for research for better treatments and a cure for the 30,000 kids with CF. This will sound odd but HCV is so lucky to have 175 Million infected people becuase there's money in those numbers for the drug companies. Not true with CF.
I'm sorry about all the ugly life cards being dealt to you right now. I'm espescially sorry about you losing your husband.
Through my ordeal with my son and with my HCV I've tried very hard to turn lemons into lemonade. It doesn't happen overnight; some days are better than ever; sometimes shxx just happens.
Ben & Jerry's new Turtle Sundae is one of my favorites.
Mike
With all the bad, there is still some good that can come out of tx'ing... lol
I used to come home late and not a minute too soon
Barking like a dog, howling at the moon
You'd be mad as an ol' red hen
Up all night bitching and wonderin' where I been
I'd fall down and say come help me honey
You laughed outloud I guess you thought it was funny
I started tx’ing and I got to thinkin'
Girl you ain't much fun since I started txing'
Now I'm paintin' the house and I'm mendin' the fence
I guess I was out and lost all my good senses
Too much work is hard for your health and
I could died while txing', but you don’t give a **** now that I’m tx’ing’
and now you stand there screaming’ feed the dog, and sack' that trash
It's honey get this done and honey do that
I wised up and I got to thinkin'
Girl you ain't much fun since I started txing'
Now I'm fixin' the sink and I'm mowin' the grass
You made me a feaking list and I'm bustin' my ***
All broke down, tail's been draggin' honey, honey
Get off my back cuz I’ve been thinking’
you may be gone when I’m finished tx’ing’
jasper
I used to come home late and not a minute too soon
Barking like a dog, howling at the moon
You'd be mad as an ol' red hen
Up all night bitching and wonderin' where I been
I'd fall down and say come help me honey
You laughed outloud I guess you thought it was funny
I started tx’ing and I got to thinkin'
Girl you ain't much fun since I started txing'
Now I'm paintin' the house and I'm mendin' the fence
I guess I was out and lost all my good senses
Too much work is hard for your health and
I could died while txing', but you don’t give a **** now that I’m tx’ing’
and now you stand there screaming’ feed the dog, and sack' that trash
It's honey get this done and honey do that
I wised up and I got to thinkin'
Girl you ain't much fun since I started txing'
Now I'm fixin' the sink and I'm mowin' the grass
You made me a feaking list and I'm bustin' my ***
All broke down, tail's been draggin' honey, honey
Get off my back cuz I’ve been thinking’
you may be gone when I’m finished tx’ing’
jasper
... i think gilda radner (of saturday night live fame) said it best... "it's always somthing...
cheers to better days ahead!
peace,
w.c. missy
cheers to better days ahead!
peace,
w.c. missy
Hi Pal,
So things aren't going your way lately,eh. Well, wait a while and like the New England weather: " It'll change"! This past week I went to a friends funeral, a guy just like you and I but he " Just didn't get It". This in no way is meant to belittle or alleviate the things you're going thru right now: ( Life on Lifes terms) . But, at least we have a shot, we have another inning left to play. He doesn't.
I've missed ya'. Hey, keep your chin up but please don't lead with it!
Thanx again for everything, Deb... Next month one year, post tx, say a prayer for me... and for my doctor. They still have to put up with me!
"Whatever God's plan is for me, it's a million times better than anything I've planned for myself"
Keep the Faith!
So things aren't going your way lately,eh. Well, wait a while and like the New England weather: " It'll change"! This past week I went to a friends funeral, a guy just like you and I but he " Just didn't get It". This in no way is meant to belittle or alleviate the things you're going thru right now: ( Life on Lifes terms) . But, at least we have a shot, we have another inning left to play. He doesn't.
I've missed ya'. Hey, keep your chin up but please don't lead with it!
Thanx again for everything, Deb... Next month one year, post tx, say a prayer for me... and for my doctor. They still have to put up with me!
"Whatever God's plan is for me, it's a million times better than anything I've planned for myself"
Keep the Faith!
Anyway, I hope things turn around for you soon. For me, whenever it gets really bad like it is for you now, something good happens. It never lasts forever even though at the time it seems like there's no way I'll get out of the situation. I'm hoping the same for you, that you are right on the verge of some sunshine.
I am so sorry about everything you've been going through. I can't imagine losing your husband, and then having your dad be critically ill with financial issues on top of it. It looks to me like you're the person where all the responsibility sits for everyone and you're sick. And there's nobody there to take care of you when you need it. You just somehow have to keep going because there's nobody else to do it. And that sucks.
I wish there was something I could do. Right now, I feel like even though I've been sick, I have a lot of things to be really grateful for and I just feel lucky in a lot of ways. I caught my hep c early so hopefully it gives me a good chance of clearing. My son lives with me and works and goes to college - both full-time - and contributes to the household finances (his dad and I split his tuition). And he's just a support to me despite the fact that he's so tired from working 40 hours a week and carrrying a full load in school. I work out of my house and I just visit the plants that manufacture my products but I can kind of make my own schedule (kind of taylor made job for getting hep c).
The only really down thing I have right now is this virus of course, and the fact that its made me feel really lousy, and then the guy who raped me had been picked up on misdemeanor warrants so I didn't have to worry about him for about a month, but then I found out he got out of jail a week ago, so that's kind of always nerve-wracking. I don't know when the grand jury meets on the case, but it troubles me that the investigator hasn't been in touch lately. That's my major point of stress, that and finances.
Mostly though, I'm happy to finally be starting treatment. I am also the main support for my son and me (my house payment is more than he makes in a month), so I do get a little worried about how sick I'll be on treatment, but on the other hand, I hope to have some projects coming in that will give me revolving income while I'm sick if I do get sick (I hope). Of course, everything could fall apart tomorrow. ;)
I wish there was something I could do. Right now, I feel like even though I've been sick, I have a lot of things to be really grateful for and I just feel lucky in a lot of ways. I caught my hep c early so hopefully it gives me a good chance of clearing. My son lives with me and works and goes to college - both full-time - and contributes to the household finances (his dad and I split his tuition). And he's just a support to me despite the fact that he's so tired from working 40 hours a week and carrrying a full load in school. I work out of my house and I just visit the plants that manufacture my products but I can kind of make my own schedule (kind of taylor made job for getting hep c).
The only really down thing I have right now is this virus of course, and the fact that its made me feel really lousy, and then the guy who raped me had been picked up on misdemeanor warrants so I didn't have to worry about him for about a month, but then I found out he got out of jail a week ago, so that's kind of always nerve-wracking. I don't know when the grand jury meets on the case, but it troubles me that the investigator hasn't been in touch lately. That's my major point of stress, that and finances.
Mostly though, I'm happy to finally be starting treatment. I am also the main support for my son and me (my house payment is more than he makes in a month), so I do get a little worried about how sick I'll be on treatment, but on the other hand, I hope to have some projects coming in that will give me revolving income while I'm sick if I do get sick (I hope). Of course, everything could fall apart tomorrow. ;)
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