I know that many in this community have struggled with their own depression, and would appreciate your thoughts and feedback. A little background for those who may not know me, my husband has fought a long hard battle against hep c, cirrhosis, and HCC the last five years but is now End Stage and not eligible for transplant; he is trying some last-line chemo but things continue to decline. I've been coping the best I can, but with his prognosis, it's also natural for me to feel grief, sorrow, and naturally, that dreaded 'depression'.
Overall, at least in my mind, I'm coping fairly well... I'm functional, I'm managing to keep things afloat, and my husband is receiving excellent medical care. I attend to my daily chores, I can be social, and civil, and even laugh at times, but of course there are days when I feel down. I've lost some weight, and I'm not sleeping well (doesn't help that things are complicated by possible frozen shoulder), but I figure it sort of goes with the territory. There are times when I just break down, but that's normal... right?
Recently when I met with my PCP, she encouraged me to consider ADs, and I have mixed feelings about it. Of course I'm supposed to feel depressed somewhat, but does that mean I need medication to make me feel better? No one around me seems to be telling me that I'm not coping well (the opposite in fact), so I'm inclined to brush off my doctor's quick offer to 'anti-depress' me. Does depression always need chemical help? Isn't it okay that I feel depressed as long as I recognize it and am coping?