Lately, this past month I have been overcome with paranoia and anxiety about my sexual health.
I have hpv..possibly more than one strain for over 5 years (diagnosed around 17, am now 22) and it's upsetting that my body hasn't been able to control it completely yet.
I've been tested for hsv2, twice in the past yr. Results are negative.
Now, hsv1 scares me because I read it's very contagious and can be caught simply by sharing drinks...cigarettes, etc.
My boyfriend of almost 2 years says he doesn't remember ever having a cold sore and I've never seen any irritations of any sort around his mouth. ..same with his 2 other brothers. (family shares everything...so I guess it helps in easing my mind if they've never had anything visible) although I know that doesn't mean he doesn't have it. He has never been tested, only for hiv/aids. ;[
I guess I'm just nervous, I'm going to get hsv1 genitally.
He rarely does oral on me...maybe 3x tops in these 2 yrs together. Never any signs of anything.
We kiss on a regular basis..so, if he had it, wouldn't I get it orally for sure before genitally?
He does sometimes lick his finger for lube..another concern.
I try not to, but he still will share cigarettes with friends and his brother, and probably drinks too.
He knows about my anxiety and stress over sexual health and this kind of stuff but will still share cigs once in a while...as he does not necessarily "believe" hsv-1 can be transmitted "so easily"...
Is it THAT easy to contract?
Wouldn't I get it orally first before genitally since we kiss every day and share drinks with eachother?
What about the finger spit lube scenerio?
Is it healthy for me to be worrying almost every day that one day I'm going to look down there and find something new? It's become very mind consuming and I dont know what to do about it. I've been stressing EVERY SINGLE DAY. Over washing myself and everything. I don't know how other people don't worry about std's ...I seem to worry TOO MUCH & I dont know how to stop and it's ruining my relationships and emotional health lately.
Anyone, please help ... you really have no idea how appreciative I am of responses.