I have OCD. Therefore, any circumstance or "fear" I stick to mentally, becomes obbsessive and distructive. One of my inner demons is an undying fear of HIV. I developed pain in the vaginal area about 6 years ago. I underwent every test in the book. I was diagnosed with HPV, treated, and still suffer from it from time to time. However, I am past that...I continued to have pain that the doctors did not believe was the HPV. I has several HSV blood test that came back negative, then finally one day I had 2 tiny red bumps that tested positive for HSV in a culture test. The test was not type specific. It took a long time to get over that, but I did. Before I got pregnant with my first daughter I really hit a bout of OCD. I became terrified of HIV. I had 4 test in a year (all negative), then 4 more over the course of the next year, one during my pregnancy (all negative). I was concerned about the HPV and HSV so I asked my doctor to test for the HSV again, considering I had had like 6 negative blood tests for HSV and one positive culture. He said if the culture is positive, then you have HSV.
So here goes, 2 years later...I still wonder...How come when you test for HIV you use a blood test that looks for antibodies and when you test for HSV you use a blood test that tests for antibodies...however, I have HSV with negative blood tests, but I do not have HIV because my tests were negative. How do I know that I can trust the HIV tests to be true? And how come the HSV blood tests didn't detect the antibodies to the virus? I had the HSV test done over the course of a year, so the virus had plenty of time to develop and exist. I just worry that perhaps I cannot trust the accuracy of HIV test.
All I really want to know is that I CAN trust the 8 HIV blood test that I have had, rapid and vein draw, and that there is no such thing as having HIV with no antibodies, over a period of time this long ( I know about the window period).