There is no excuse. I ****** up. Again.
After been going through a rough patch in my life (and being severely addicted to pornography at the same time), I started entertaining the idea of visiting a rub and tug. I live in Asia and it's this massage where the girls will either give you a handjob (sometimes more).
I visited one today and the masseuse and I ended up getting nude and there was a point when she was riding me cow girl with almost her entire weight on me (she was petite). I took notice to make sure that her vagina was not touching my penis. Not sure if her anus did though. From my angle, it looks like she was just using her buttcheeks but I can't be sure. Either way, there was no fabric between our skins.
When she turned around, I took the opportunity to check for any growths or sores quickly and did not see any. Now, I'm freaking out. Keep feeling itch around my butt and penis. It's only been 3 hours since the incident.
Here's the thing. I have a girlfriend whom I love a lot. I intend to marry this girl. And I just slipped. There is no excuse, and I don't want a mistake of mine to become the downfall of my relationship. Yes, it's a grave mistake and I cannot make amends now. I just want to get this incident behind me (hopefully without any repercussions) and just move on with life. I'm just worried about my chances of getting herpes (or HPV). I know these are skin viruses and they cannot be cured.
Anyone can advise on what are my risks here?
Appreciate it.