Hi, I am looking for women who have INTERNAL only HSV1 breakouts and/or very mild breakouts with just 1 "bump." I cannot move on with my life not knowing if I have it genitally or not. I have had PCR tests done and ran to clinics to swab any bumps, cuts, everything and anything. I was actually banned from a clinic cuz I was using their resources and they stated I did not have it, but needed psychological help. I have never had an outbreak, but I get this under the skin bump around my period monthly on my left labia. I do think I have prodromes. Itchy inner thighs, paralyzing back pain, headaches. In the past a year later after infection. It felt like someone was scrubbing underwear between my thighs. Then years later it felt like someone was sticking a needle in my peehole. I go through phases. I have never felt the same. A couple of years ago I had a brazilian laser done with a bad reaction. My skin never had blisters, but she burned me so bad the flesh came off. I've had what I've thought to have a "burning pee" feeling at times, but nothing too uncomfortable. How can I prove once and for all if I have it? I was a virgin until 26 and after losing my virginity I got a cold sore, but at the time I had no idea what it was since we've never had cold sores in our family nor knew anyone with it. It grew after I knicked my cheek. I thought it was a very nasty yellow crusty infected pimple that no matter how much I picked and cleaned kept coming back. The ******* who gave it to me said "whats that?" Like he didn't know. I knew nothing until 7 months later I took a full STD test and wala 5.00 IGM positive. I actually go over the charts the viral load is so high. I had no sexual contact with anyone and that night I never kissed him, but it was my 1st time "trying" oral. I licked it for a second, but I know that's all it takes now. I go into bouts of depression. I really need someone to help me figure this out. How did you know you had genital HSV1 if you never had the full blown breakout? What prodromes do you experience? What does your "bump" look like and feel like? Thanks!