Please help! I had my first genital herpes outbreak 6 years ago, and have never since experienced any herpes symptoms. This week, I felt an itchy area on my labia, but am so used to living as if I don't have herpes that I thought nothing of it. I had no other herpes symptoms. I scratched it absentmindedly with my hand, and then went to change my 8 month old daughter's diaper, without thinking at all! I use a diaper rash cream that I made for her, of which the main ingredients are beeswax, olive oil, and tea tree oil (beeswax and tea tree oil are said to have antiviral properties). I massaged the cream into her little bum and vagina, before I suddenly realized that I could be transmitting the herpes virus to her. Then, I went into a blind panic and washed both myself and her down with warm soapy water!!
Afterwards, I looked at the area that felt itchy on myself, and it did look like a herpes blister, although there is only one blister, and I have experienced no other symptoms - and haven't had it for 6 years!!
My question is if it is likely or possible to have transmitted the virus to her?? I scratched myself in the bathroom only 10 minutes or so before massaging the diaper cream into her. I had rubbed it onto her skin quite thoroughly before realizing what I was doing. There's a good chance that I washed my hands before changing her because I almost always do after using the bathroom, although I can't remember for sure, and am posing this question assuming that I didn't as I am so worried.
As the balm has beeswax and tea tree oil, I am really really hoping that it killed the virus on contact, and that I washed her with warm soapy water in time.
She is regularly breastfed, which I assume means she has good immunity - I myself have a very healthy diet and a good immune system, which I hope confers to her through the breastmilk.
I have read a lot of other posts on here about it, and have noticed that a person called Grace has been super helpful - I feel like my situation is different from the ones I read because I actually massaged the balm into her, as opposed to just lightly touching her, which may have caused the virus to spread more easily.
This all happened just today, and I can't stand the waiting to see if she develops an outbreak. I don't know how I could ever live with myself if this happens. Any words of wisdom are welcomed.