herpes from mutual masturbation

[caljake]

Hi Grace i'm Jake and im 25 and really nervous. I had an encounter with mutual masturbation where someone i didnt know from gym [but know he's been around by what he was saying] licked/sucked my balls but not my shaft [i didn't do any oral at all] and we briefly jacked each other in a stall. I ejaculated into my hand but the other guy didnt come on me although there was precum on his hand and i think it got on my penis when i was stroking it. Im really scared about having caught herpes or hpv from this and it was my first time doing this since high school- I'm not promiscuous this was unusual. I got tested about a week later for stds at a clinic and was clean but now I'm worried that was too soon. Also my penis head has tiny bumps on it and sometimes they sting for a second/penis twitches sometimes and I've had some flu symptoms and achy balls now and then since that happened almost four months ago[haven't had sex since of any kind xcept jerking off and even that isn't as often as it used to be but sometimes I have to or I feel like I'll go crazy]. I haven't had big sores or breakouts like pictures I've seen and nothing on the shaft but have had serious depression since it happened and am afraid I ruined my life/chances of being with anyone and I'm just getting going with things. Also I shave my balls and the area clean and I've read now on internet that can make it very easy to catch stds on them? I didn't know that until after all this happened and thought this was safe sex. Please help me im scared to the point of being on the edge.What do you think about this I can't tell anyone!! Thank you so much for all you do here for everyone.

[gracefromHHP]

this doesn't really sound like it's herpes going on.

[caljake]

But i was stupid.

[caljake]

Anyone? Would i feel irriateted/skin in the next day or so from herpes? I just looked at my penis and theres no bumps or nething but its irrtiateted. Could this be from it being sucked hard/roughly? And the tongue was rough/dry/from blazing before it all went down. If i test a week after how good is it? How likly is is it that i coulda got sometihng esp hsv 1 or 2. I didnt see any sores/i looked b4 i lept!! Thanks/JAke =/

[caljake]

hi grace. been a while but i've been around/cheking things out. I had a brief encounter at NYs w someone that did oral on me. It was really stupid. I was wasted and not thinking and it happend real fast. I've been haveing some irritatetions on it but the oral was pretty agresive. I'm freaking out but trying to stay cool bout things. TAlked to a guy i know who basically said no worries man kinda thing. He does it alot from what he said/same w another guy i talked to. For me i just don;t have the mind/I'm very ADD for casual stuff. Scary to me. So now i gotta get tested again n wait. It's prety humiliating to kick myslf in the crotch again like this/i;ve been really careful n did nuthing w neone for 6mos. I'm scared of sex now. Do u think i'm being paranoid or just overthinking it all? I was doing real good w things/now i'm terified all over again. thanks/JAke

[caljake]

Hi GracE. Thanks for ur reply..glad ur not w/o power still -=] And i know now its not hsv and so thankful for ur help and positive [the good postive!!] thogts bout it not being stds. Going 2 derm nxt thurs. Next step in my quest for peace down there. ANy info anyone here can give me re hpv or if there symptoms r lke mine [found a cpl guys who have similar btw!!] i would be grateful.. Thanks and best of luck to all ppl here on there getting well and good results.  I will let u know what i find out at derm. THanks again. JAke =]

[gracefromHHP]

you need to stop thinking this is std related!!!  You were seen and they didn't think that these were hpv related. Your description doesn't sound like hpv either. Your encounter wasn't really a risk for hpv either.

this isn't herpes. this isn't herpes.

if your regular provider isn't able to figure out what is going on, see a dermatologist.