I am a 20 something, gay male who was recently diagnosed with genital warts. The outbreak was around my anus, although a single spot on my scrotum was frozen despite my dermatologist not being able to definitively say whether it was HPV or not.
Since my diagnoses, I've pretty much lost it. I am afraid, deathly afraid, of the rejection associated with telling anyone in the future that I have this- and terrified I will never be able to have a normal sex life.
Is there any hope of leading a normal sex life? Is this something I will have to inform every partner of for the rest of my life- or is it safe to assume that when symptoms disappear, a partner would not be at risk? I'm not a promiscuous person- but I'm not naive enough to think that the only person I'll ever be with is the person I'll spend the rest of my life with. Anal intercourse always comes with a requisite of condoms with me, but what about oral sex? My doctor could not say for certain whether or not the one spot on my scrotum was HPV, and given that most gay men will not suck rubber- does that mean this is out of the question forever?
Basically- is sex going to be a chore for the rest of my life- complete with a whole lot of rejection and long, long laborious explanations on my part?
I don't want to put anyone at risk without telling them- as clearly I was not told (while, by the way, practicing safer sex). That said- I am terrified, and I mean literally despondent, about what this means for me going forward. My experience with people in general is that they are risk averse and less than forgiving for things like this. So what do I do?
Help, please. I'm losing my mind.