I recently found out from an abnormal pap smear that I have dysplasia, inflammation of the cervix, and am postive for HPV. I have already gone through a colposcopy and had cryosurgery done yesterday (Wed.).
As a woman, this has caused an enormous amount of emotional stress for me. I can't help but constantly ask myself the question "why me?" I've only had three monogamous relationships (at least on my end) and have never practiced casual sex. Before I found out the bad news, I was beginning to exercise again and eating very healthily. Hearing the abnormal results was a huge blow. Feelings of embarrassment culminate frequently. This isn't my only problem, however.
What really brings me down is that I have not told my current boyfriend the news... We have been going out for about 3-4 months...and I love him. We both enjoy sex very much, but having the procedure done will prevent me from having intercourse when I go down to visit him. (We're in an unplanned long distance relationship, in other words, we didn't know we would be separated when we started dating.) I've been blaming me feeling ill on the birth control pills I just started taking about a week ago. I need to tell him soon because I really have no excuse for abstaining from sex, which is a concern for him.
I don't know how to tell him and I am extremely worried about being dumped. He prides his health a lot and I'm afraid he will look at me differently. This would truly break my heart if he isn't understanding.
Please give any suggestions on sharing this with him and coping with any outcomes. Sorry for the long post and I'll appreciate your suggestions. :(