Aa
diagnosis troubles-stem like growths
I’ve seen multiple doctors, gynaecologists who all said they don’t know what’s causing the symptoms I’m having, or who say it’s just a mind thing, since I started having problems down there since a sexual assult. All the std tests and bloods come back neg but my high risk hpv shows positive with no cervical abnormalities atm. Ever since the assult I’ve had itching burning and discharge and was conviced it’s warts coming or something so my gyn said to check once every few months. I checked few weeks ago and have these stem like growths on inside my vagina opening on my hymen area.. lots of diff little stem growths. I have irritation down there. My psychologist thinks it’s all in my mind liek a somatic disorder but I swear it’s not. Anyway I went to sexual clinic again and doc said nope that they are normal vagina papules. But I guess I feel like what are they and why are they here now? I’ve booked into a dermatologist now who specialises in vagina disorders etc so I’m hoping she can finally tell me what’s going on and if they are just normal papules. It’s not for another month though. In the mean time I’m upset most days and feel so uncomfortable in my body. I take meds to try deal with all this better now but I still feel like a failure and don’t know how to cope and live anymore. Have others been misdiagnosed? Should I believe they are just normal papules? Have others been in this situation? The doc said warts look like cauliflower and that I have stem like things are normal. Online it says that genital warts can also be stem like-which is exactly what mine look like!
I was almost finished with a lengthy reply when I accidentally hit the back button on my phone and lost everything so I think I will sum up if that's okay. I say if that's okay because I took the time to express my condolences regarding the assault and acknowledge the nature and tendency of our responses situations like that. I'm sorry that you had that experience. I really am.
So, to sum up. Were you ever tested for high-risk HPV before the assault? HPV is so common that we can easily get it very early in our sexual exploration. If you had never been tested, then it's difficult to say when you were exposed to that.
I'm inclined to believe the Diagnostics of your multiple doctors. I'm glad that you have a further appointment with another specialist, and if this person says the same thing, please believe them! If for any reason you cannot believe them, then insist that they remove one of these growth and have it biopsied. With anxiety response such as yours, I believe this is a good way to go.
As far as the burning and itching Sensations go and perhaps the discharge as well, even though I am definitely no expert or even a novice about this as I'm a man, I would really like to suggest to you that these are indeed psychosomatic responses to the trauma. I suggest this because I have severe general anxiety and I can tell you story after story after Story of things I was convinced I had because my mind was hyper-vigilant and detected symptoms that just weren't there. It's a classic Behavior of anxiety and response to trauma.
My other response was much longer, and I won't repeat the lengthiness here due to time constraints. I'd be happy to respond again later, but I really do think a Case can be made that you're having a lot of anxiety and additional emotional responses to this assault and that your mind is running away with you with anxiety and hypervigilance. Definitely consider this and explore the path forward to Healing if indeed this is the case because those tools are going to be necessary for you to employ. I know you can do it!
So, to sum up. Were you ever tested for high-risk HPV before the assault? HPV is so common that we can easily get it very early in our sexual exploration. If you had never been tested, then it's difficult to say when you were exposed to that.
I'm inclined to believe the Diagnostics of your multiple doctors. I'm glad that you have a further appointment with another specialist, and if this person says the same thing, please believe them! If for any reason you cannot believe them, then insist that they remove one of these growth and have it biopsied. With anxiety response such as yours, I believe this is a good way to go.
As far as the burning and itching Sensations go and perhaps the discharge as well, even though I am definitely no expert or even a novice about this as I'm a man, I would really like to suggest to you that these are indeed psychosomatic responses to the trauma. I suggest this because I have severe general anxiety and I can tell you story after story after Story of things I was convinced I had because my mind was hyper-vigilant and detected symptoms that just weren't there. It's a classic Behavior of anxiety and response to trauma.
My other response was much longer, and I won't repeat the lengthiness here due to time constraints. I'd be happy to respond again later, but I really do think a Case can be made that you're having a lot of anxiety and additional emotional responses to this assault and that your mind is running away with you with anxiety and hypervigilance. Definitely consider this and explore the path forward to Healing if indeed this is the case because those tools are going to be necessary for you to employ. I know you can do it!
2 Comments
Thnakyou so much for taking the time to respond again! I know how annoying that is, that has happened to me a few times while writing replies on this site, it disappears after I’ve writen my response. Yes that is true, when I was about 18 I had an abnormal Pap smear, it may have been from chlamidiya that I got from a guy I was seeing. Since I was 19 I’ve only been with my partner for about six years besides the assult last year and I never felt like this previously so it’s hard not to relate it to the assult. Obvs the police didn’t care about the hpv and pretty much laughed about it and closed the case straight away as they said no evidence of anything. So I had a normal pap I’m june last year, assulted in oct, started having weird discharge and then itching burning.. was so worried got checked again and agin and then requested another pap in dec before Christmas, my pap was normal and first time it showed high risk hpv positive. I assume I could now possibly have a low risk but doctors said obvs there’s nothing they can do for me until they see visible symptoms. The vaginal papules only just showed up so I do think they are suspicious. The doctors I’ve seen said warts aren’t common and it’s most likely not and warts are only cauliflower shape. I don’t know why they say this as it’s not what anything online says when you look up hpv. They say itching burning isn’t a symptom but I don’t understand how it isn’t. I have considered and hoped my condition was just somatic and in my head but I still feel this way for almost a year.. that’s why I think it’s real. I do think I will get proper diagnosis this time as the derm I’m seeing diagnoses cancers and is very qualified and also trains in hospitals so I think I will trust her opinion, I hope it is jsut papules but I just don’t think it is. My appt is not til August, if she is not sure I will demand a biopsy. I do know I’m not coping with the trauma, my whole life is different now. Feels like I don’t have a life, I hate being in my body it’s awful.. so I know I do need help with this anxiety. I’ve never felt like this before, feels like I’ve got a battle with my life in my hands. It’s truely evil I feel for another to put someone through this. I almost lost my life literally and feels like I’m not living. I felt lost as I’m seeing the psychiatrist, taking the meds, seeing my councillor and my psychologist. I ask for help, I tell how I feel but I don’t feel any better so I feel I have to accept my life is like this now but it’s hard to. It makes me feel like I’m crazy, when doctors dismiss me liek they do.. it’s like I’m an annoyance to society. But then my whole view on society has changed and I don’t really like anyone or trust anyone now, or can’t trust anyone. Besides my partner and my children and I feel so sorry that I’m letting them down. I want to get better and have a life again so that’s a start. I don’t see things improving but they must be as I’m not trying to attempt suicide at least. I feel like such a joke of a parent. My kids are what’s kept me alive, I don’t know how I would be here without them. Sorry for going on, thanks so much for replying.. life is bloody tuff and unfair:/ I will let you know what the derm says. Will be good to get a diagnosis from her and if she thinks it’s nothing to then I can try and move on and get over this ptsd and anxiety. I don’t want to let that person destroy my life and let them win so I will try my hardest even with the hpv and possible disease from him. I’ll just have to pretend it’s from my first boyfriend when I was 18 and try forget everything that happened last year somehow, I hate having to remember what happened everyday
Damn, that's rough and I'm very sorry to hear that. As someone with pretty severe anxiety disorder myself, I relate to your thoughts and how it makes you feel.
You're right, the whole cauliflower thing is stupid.
Your abnormal pap at 18 was from high risk hpv. Do some research just to be sure, but I think abnormal paps result from that only.
Warts don't itch. Neither are they painful.
The biggest issue for you is your trauma response which is to be expected. If you are not familiar with meditation, getting into it will really help you. It really will. This is an area for you to plug in with true experts so all I can do is sympathize and encourage you. Keep working toward your recovery and believe your medical professional.
You're right, the whole cauliflower thing is stupid.
Your abnormal pap at 18 was from high risk hpv. Do some research just to be sure, but I think abnormal paps result from that only.
Warts don't itch. Neither are they painful.
The biggest issue for you is your trauma response which is to be expected. If you are not familiar with meditation, getting into it will really help you. It really will. This is an area for you to plug in with true experts so all I can do is sympathize and encourage you. Keep working toward your recovery and believe your medical professional.
You are reading content posted in the Human Papillomavirus (HPV) Community
Herpes spreads by oral, vaginal and anal sex.
Herpes sores blister, then burst, scab and heal.
STIs are the most common cause of genital sores.
Millions of people are diagnosed with STDs in the U.S. each year.
STDs can't be transmitted by casual contact, like hugging or touching.
Syphilis is an STD that is transmitted by oral, genital and anal sex.
