I had a visit to my gastro today who assured me I'm fine,n he thinks my problem is more of an anxiety issue then a liver disorder. He ordered a new set of bloods, but he says he's only doing this to appease me, he sees no reason for it. sorry for the neurotic behavior. He was quick to point out that I had 3 ultrasounds in the last 2 years and almost 20 blood tests all relatively normal.
Hello and hope you are doing well.
As your doctor has assured you, the liver function tests are normal. If you are worried about cirrhosis, it can be detected by an ultrasonography, but unlikely because of your normal results.
Hope this helped and do keep us posted.
I sympathize with the OCD part. I tried drinking to alleviate OCD related anxiety and ended up in rehab. More if interested:
OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder)
SC February 7, 2005
I probably had it for years without knowing it. Initially, virtually asymptomatic. Early signs: At age 11 or so, I read about a Red Skelton’s son dying of leukemia. I then worried for years that I was going to die of a similar illness. Uncomfortable, but bearable. Worry was intermittent, not constant. Functioned OK in society. Later obsessions included fear of being gay, fear of public toilets, fear of killing myself in a plane crash. Garden variety OCD stuff. Still functioned OK in society, but believe OCD prevented me from getting married. Maybe a good thing anyway ;-)
OCD dam broke in Feb 2001 when an audit caught me cheating and triggered a cascade of various obsessions. After roughly 6 months of OCD hell, therapy and medication, I resorted to alcohol after 18 years of sobriety. This ended Christmas Day 2002 when I seriously considered suicide.
Dec 26, 2002 I asked a friend to drive me to re hab, where I spent the first 4 days on my journey back to sobriety and sanity.
It’s been a slow, painful journey, but I am nearly back to “normal”.
I stopped taking meds a few months ago and haven’t felt the need for therapy for months either.
The things that helped me:
Initially, therapy and meds at least gave me the sense I was tackling the problem. In the end, I don’t know that either helped all that much with the exception of Klonipin (clonazempam), which took the edge off my anxiety. A few months ago, I began to wean myself off 1-3 mg a day to zero. None of the SSRI’s seemed to work for me. I am skeptical about ERP, as that seemed like nothing more than spending time doing what I was doing all day anyway: obsessing about something fearful. Eventually, it seems I achieved the same result on my own. The ERP concept is probably correct.
I also sold my farm which might be claimed to be an avoidance, but on the other hand, relieving stress and subjecting myself to a radical change in lifestyle proved to be helpful. Breaking an ingrained pattern of living may be therapeutic for an obsessive personality. I am glad I did it.
I also took up road cycling. I have for decades been athletic, and exercise and endorphin “highs” are vital to me. This has kept me busy and physically pumped up. I find other athlete riders a good group for socializing. It is a risky sport and it has been therapeutic to take on the risk, rewarding to survive, and willing to accept any outcome. It makes me confident and positive just putting that down.
Helpful: Books: Brainlock and From Panic to Power. Clonazepam if used as prescribed. Therapy offers insight and possible relief from the problem. Regular exercise, good diet. Socializing. Any close friend and confidant who has coped with or vanquished OCD extremely helpful. Possibly a radical change to lifestyle as long as it’s not blatant “running away” in the vain hope that will cure OCD. My Jack Russell Terrier has been incredibly therapeutic! Old Time Radio tapes/TV (any relaxing media) to aid with sleep. Patience and time. Acceptance and surrender. Sometimes it’s just a matter of holding on as, day by day, by miniscule degree, one gets better. It’s worth the effort as one begins to enjoy and appreciate life once again.
As I recovered from this late life crisis, I began to let go long held obsessions, fears and “deep, dark secrets”. I didn’t feel so threatened. Physiologically more relaxed, biological functions even seemed to work better. In the end, this traumatic experience (however exaggerated), has been cathartic and liberating.
OCD can become a non issue in one’s life. No matter how hopeless it may seem during a major OCD episode, don’t lose sight of that probability.
You should check your GGT level.