In 2001 I came down with a fever that spiked to 105. I ended up going to urgent care. There has not been one day since the onset of the fever that I have not had pain. My back is the worst. I had so many test done, x-rays, mri's, lyme, you name it I had the tests.
After a couple of years of terrible pain that the Docs. could not pinpoint I ended up going into pain management. Now I live on pain medication day in and day out. Without it I would kill myself the pain is to much for one person to handle no matter if you sit stand or lay down. Along with my back pain, legs going numb and falling from time to time, breast are so tender, joint pain, face going numb sometimes, plus to many others to mention, I now have pain that starts from my ankle and goes up the side of my leg to my knee, neck pain that hurts so bad it is hard to drive, tmj, ear pain so bad and the pain medication I am on will not make a dent in the pain. I am tired of pain meds.
Last year I was told I had lyme. Doc. said that I had no immune system amoung other things. There are no good infectious Docs. around this area. I can not drive more that 20 mins without pain even if I take pain meds. I can not stay in a store more than 45 mins. without my back hurting so bad that I have to go to the car take pain med and wait for almost 1 hr. for it to take effect.
I quit crying over this in 2004 and learned to live with it. It is just getting harder and new symtoms keep popping up.
What to do? Sometimes I do want to end the suffering because it is just getting worse.