Alikat1205,
I'm so sorry for what you're going thru. If you lived nearby, I would come and babysit for you so you could get some time away.
I'm wishing good fortune and some relief your way.
We are still getting the after shocks here,just discernable where I live like a trembling, I have never been through anything like you guys have...Actually the fires here seem scarier than the earthquakes.
Earthquake in Puerto Rico...very serious one. The ground opened up by my aunts home and it is currently a small stream. How did I cope...I was a child, thought it was fun that my bed was shaking me all over the place, then prayed with my aunt....Judy
Of course you are lonely ,you have been through a horrible experience, you are a survivor you just hang on, there will come a time when you accept what happened to you, it sounds as if you are going to try to make it back to your home town, so keep that forefront in your mind, focus on that dont let your thoughts dwell on the negativityof what happened.. you all survived.. life has a way of when we reach the bottom there is nowhere to go but back up.Next time those old thoughts drag you down, tell them "Begone! or at least "Stop' distract yourself get busy go out running I see you ran a 5k, ground your self, children help a lot tehre they keep you busy no doubt .A fresh start ,a fresh Life is coming up, .you can start planning....
i will add, we are lonely, all of our friends have been forced to do the same as we have, relocate all over the country. people we have been friends with all of our lives. gone. we have had a hard time making new friends, and we are unable to go out and attend anything so we are just alone, trying to hang on until who knows what? until we can go home.
well, we lost our house and i lost my business, my childrens school was closed for a long time. my husband worked for a hospital, had to stay throughout the storm. my daughters and i headed to shreveport. we could not reach him could not get a call to his cell. finally after four days he got a message to my cell thru text which said "don't know when or if i am coming home, do what you need to do". so i started calling all over baton rouge to get an apartment, but there were none to be had. i finally was able to secure an apartment in lafayette, louisiana, a one bedroom apartment for my family of four. my husband finally was evacuated a week later, and met us in lafayette, in the same clothes he had been wearing for well over a week, and he had not showered. we all had to shop, since i only brought 3 days worth of clothing for me and my children, and my husband had nothing. so we were homeless, and with nothing. after both of us being professionals and having a nice home and life in new orleans. we lived in the apartment for 3 months until we were able to buy another home in lafayette and commuted to nola to fix our home there. we did finally sell that home, which was fortunate, since my husband's business never re-opened. we did have to sell our home in lafayette as well, since my husband was transferred and we had to accept since he would then be unemployed, and my business was wiped out. so we are now far from home, with no family (grandparents still in nola, we miss them, and so my children, they were all close). my husband have not gone out alone together now since katrina, over three years since we have no sitter, no family, no life.