You should see a therapist to address your fears. You clearly have an anxiety disorder of some sort. Don't worry, it's not uncommon at all. It's time to control the anxiety instead of letting it control you.
I had the same problem and still have sometimes. I joined a theatre group and it helped. If I have to do a speech I always have notes in order and know what I am going to say. I never do impromptu unless it is broached upon me. I will tell you the more you do it the easier it becomes though. Imagine these people looking at you are standing there in their underwear or naked. Choose three points slighlty above peoples heads when you speak in a large forum one to the left, one to the right and one in the middle. You can always start your speeches by saying geez just standing here makes me red in the face. Your audience relaxes more and understands you are human. Take deep breaths before you start. It's worth a go. Don't worry I have broken out in a sweat and hives.
this might seem funny, but i know a little about what your dealing with, what I did was start a kind of goofy therapy. whenever i walked into a building (such as a bank or store or anyplace really) i would hum (in my head) the DARTH VADER theme. after a while i noticed that when i did that, i stood taller and walked and spoke with far more confidence than ever before. in fact someone once said i walked into their store like i owned the place. try it ! l.e.
lol i like the darth vader one. will give it a try.
i went to a doctor about it like a year ago. he prescribed me Inderal 40mg (propranolol). That didnt seem to help. although i only took it for a week or so cos my g/f said it made me more angry.
What about goin red.....ive heard you can have surgery done to stop that from happening. any other methods you know of?
thanks for all your help. you dudes rock
cheers for the response. i guess i just have to figure some sort of method that works best for me. I have a job interview next week and already feeling really nervous about it.
Preperation is esential
good luck with the interview and remember, you are DARTH VADER
you own the galaxy and you kick ass !!! l.e.