I know this may seem like a wierd question but here goes.
(If its relevant) Im a big, 6 ft, 80kg lad who is not sure about masterbation. Ive heard that if you want to get beefed (and I really do want to get more so) then its a bad idea and ive heard that NOT masterbating is a bad idea and.. I am REALLY confused as to what to do. I dont want to get involved in some wierd threatening arguement with a 6 year old either so please dont judge me by the cover.
Also; Porn? What advice can you give about that.
Let me give you the whole story. I started masterbating when i was 11/12 I think, (apparently I am a late developer) everyone at school looks at porn while doing it and so do I. Until now have I become unsure about it. I used to be a real wanker, at least 5 a day (Couple of years back) but over the years the amount that I masterbate has gone down, and down and down.
Im trying to limit it to once every 2 days. So far i dont get morning wood from what I can remember But i'll give you an update on that. Is this good or bad?
Also, I remember a time when I myself just stopped masterbating for like 7 years and my body didnt even care but I did. It was horrible. I lost all interest in women, my penis became really shrivelled and cold and I felt miserable. That was a long time ago but still. Sometimes however, (Like on holiday) I feel better and less tired when I dont masterbate, but thats definetly mixed. Sometimes I feel more tired when I do, sometimes i dont.
Also, I noticed that a day after masterbating, my penis was a bit bigger than usual and it felt really expansive and all that. I used to masterbate daily regardless of how I felt but now I only do it when im horny. Keep in mind that im 16, look like a big ugly ******* and nobody wants to date me period. Its not that people dont like me or whatever, Its just that people have been put off by the fact that I am REALLY crazy and have some really evil thoughts (>:D) not sexual ones, but ones including violence. At one point my brain told me to kill someone but i was like "NO!" so it was like "Oh ok" XD.
Well anyway that was a bit off-topic. Speaking of which, when I dont masterbate, I feel really crazy and dont feel drawn to women sometimes, whilst when I do masterbate I have less energy and feel tired. Of course, either way I have sudden bursts of energy and feel really violent, but then thats me. Im more of a violent person than a sexually orientated one. I noticed as well that Im a lot less perverted since I started looking at porn less. When a girl with a tight *** walks by, I still look but for not as long and feel sort of guilty afterwards XD.
Im not trying to keep abstinence or something, I DO want to get laid eventually. Oh and please dont pull the bible out on me, I am aethiest.
Anyway, do you guys thing that I am sexually healthy and mentally healthy? Please give your honest opinion. Thanks for reading :D.