Lately my penis has been giving me alot of stress as I do not know what is wrong. It is often hard when flaccid(not erect but stiff and tight and it shrinks), this is always worse after masterbation. I also noticed the veins on my penis are more prominent now. There is one extremely large one on the top, 2 small green ones on the left side, and 1 semi ok sized one on the right sized. After masterbation they can often ache or stick out more than usual. Occasionally I have some discomfort or strange sensations that are hard to explain. Also it feels like the left side of the base of my penis is weaker than the right. It feels like there are not as many muscles on the left side of my shaft and after masterbation the left side can feel numb or just a discomfort. I think because of this my penis is a little crooked unless it is fully hard, it also has a little curve to but once fully erect the curve is very slight, also sometimes when soft it can be tilted to the left alot, and sometimes it can have a pretty bad curve to it but only for a moment until i straighten it and this isn't very frequent but it seems to happen when it feels sore and not fully hard, and it always scares me and catches me off guard.
When I do not masterbate for about a week it seems to start to feel better and doesn't get hard when flaccid as frequently and generally no discomfort. However i was trying to stop completely but after a week i masterbated and it felt better than before afterwards, but then did again the following night and it was back to worse than it used to be... When I stop for a few days I have the urge quite badly but I don't do it however when i get erect and then go soft it does the hard flaccid for a while and has some discomfort although not as bad as if i were to masterbate. The hard flaccid is my main concern really and always seems to arrise when i have some sort of anxiety or unsureness in me. When ever I am nervous or even have a slight doubt it seems to get worse, for example when I am about to leave my house it will get worse from being a little anxious until i relax. Also if I am ever nervous or scared it can be extremely bad. Following masterbation it is always worse and seems to do it for no reason, it feels like the blood just ***** out kinda when it sits there and i have to move it or be extremely relaxed to go back to normal.
From research a few things i think may be wrong is i may have a problem with my pelvic floor, as i read it is anxiety indused and can be caused by drugs, and i noticed this become more of an issue when i took a substance i was told was something else and had an extremely anxiety filled stressful night. Or possibly a slight case of peyronnies disease as i do have some curve to it and discomfort but when fully erect it is pretty straight and always feels more comfortable erect than soft which leads me to think it might not be that. Other than that possibly just scar tissue build up and nerve and blood vessel damage from over masterbation. I am trying to let it heal but i seem to make it a week and then over do it because i start to feel reassured. I am also taking a herbal suppliment called kanabo xtreme repair in hopes it improves blood flow and fixes nerve damage and breaks up scar tissue(that what it says it does but i am unsure) Anyways i am not sure if any of these are whats wrong and am really concerned and tired of dealing with this. I really just want it to go back to normal because i feel the amount of stress and anxiety it has given me is unreasonable. Please if you know whats wrong tell me or if you know how i can help it. I am hoping with rest and the suppliment it will improve but if i do not start to see serious improvements soon i am going to see a urologist.