I had a D&E on 11/14/11. The same day two friends had their babies.
This is my second miscarriage in a row. With my first, I didn't find out I had miscarried until my 10-week appointment in early March 2011. My husband and I started trying again right away, but we didn't conceive until October when I started using an ovulation kit.
With the latest pregnancy, I requested to have my hcg levels tested every 72 hours, which gave me peace of mind that everything was okay - until everything wasn't okay. I felt great until the day I got the phone call that my numbers had stopped doubling and I needed to come in for an ultrasound. Over the weekend, waiting for my Monday appointment, it was like the phone call triggered cramping and random old blood spotting.
We've opted to have the testing done to see if there was some sort of genetic abnormality. The doctor is also testing my blood to see if I have a blood clot disorder. So far, what I've been told is if I have this disorder, my body is forming a clot in the umbilical cord and cutting off blood flow to the sac/baby.
My next appointment is this Friday and hopefully I'll have some news - good or bad.
I haven't told any friends about my latest miscarriage - only my mom and obviously, my husband. I feel like such a terrible person lately because I can hardly stand to listen to my co-workers carry ON AND ON regaling anyone who will listen to the minutia of their kid(s). And the friends who recently had babies, I can barely bring myself to visit. I thought the baby showers were bad enough.
So my post comes down to:
#1. Has anyone else heard of this blood clot issue or had the fetal testing done?
#2. How does a girl keep her hopes up that this dream will ever come true? Should my husband and I just become fabulous vacation people so a-hole friends and acquaintances stop asking us when we're going to have babies?
#3: How do I stop feeling so much self-loathing for having something wrong with me and feeling sorry for my husband for marrying such a failure?