Honey, see a grief counselor. That is a lot of deaths in a short time, and there is no reason you have to overtax yourself emotionally just because it is Christmas. Ask your 18-year-old to take on the decorating and the shopping, and ask your husband to buy for the 18-year-old, and seek some counseling help. There is nothing like a grief counselor for being helpful in times like this.
My thing is my husband wanted no one to know until we got past 3 months my 18 year old kind understands and is upset but my six year old is not so easy I only got the tree up friday well my daughter did no shoping done o nly a few gifts its heart brakeing to spoil it for my 6 year old that and we bearly told any of thoughs coming hear for christmas last christmas we lost my husbands mam this one its the peanut annd my adoptive mum since moving into this house 5 years ago weve lost 2 babys 2 mums an adoptive mum and adoptive dad and a job is it me or the home I think its me breaking up breaking down and lost
I am so sorry for your loss. You are not obliged to paste on a smile for Christmas. I lost twins at Christmas, and certainly everyone understood that I was not a bucket of joy.
My battel to keep my baby is over at 7 weeks I have lost a3rd time I am breaking but no one will know as I paste on a smile for christmas