Four years ago at age 27 I took Zoloft after having been off of it for a while, I took a tablet that was 100...possibly mg's...whatever the 100 is, I was severely sick all night in my sleep, when I woke up I had this overwhelming feeling that I was going to die and pass out, my heart was irratic, my mouth was dry, dizzyness, I was shaking, and I kept having anxiety attacks, which I had never had before....when at the ER they didn't do anything, told me to see my dr. I went, he put me on Zoloft a smaller dose to start, things got worse, symptoms got worse, I nearly died, all of the previous symptoms were intesified, and, I was not hypersnsitive, ubable to bathe myslef, looked like death and no one did anything. I changed dr.'s He put me on Paxil, I again, got worse, more passing out spells, confusion, then it hit me, psychosis, didn't know who I was, who my children were, I felt unreal, I would question who I was, looking in the mirror made me sick and sad, I felt trapped in a body I didn't know, it was HORRIBLE! I had no history of mental illness. I switched dr.'s again, she put me on Luvox, I believe it was, another anti depressant, things got worse, I was having seizures, or brain zaps, I coudn't care for my kids or myself..I checked myself into the hospital's mental ward because at that time I thougt I had lost my mind....again, they changed me to Zoloft, as soon as I'd take a pill, everyone would see that I would become flush, have a panic attack, and almost pass out, yet they continued to give them to me. I went home and got off of ALL pills. I had had it!! It was horrible, it seemed as though my nervous system was fried, I couldn't see clearly, couldn't drive, still had seizures, still metal confusion, but a little better...I was able to somewhat function. Now, 4 years later, I still suffer. I still have seizures or brain zaps, still fainting sensations, also mental confusion, and my brain almost always hurts as though it's in a vice grip. I suffer from vertigo, and feel like I'm going crazy at times. I hurt in my brain, I know that sounds crazy, but it literally hurts. I have this overwhelming feeling that I can't handle things, and that I'm jut going to fall over and die, and that my brain is going to explode. I have researched SO much..I also forgot to mention that six months after that I came down with pancreatitis, had my gall bladder removed with no signs of what caused the pancreatitis. I also ended up with a total thyroidectomy one year after this nightmare started. Why?? My body seems to be going haywire, and it's out of control. I cannot work, sometimes cannot drive. One dr. even put me on Seroquel which made me hallucinate!! They thought I was just crazy. I can tell you, I can pass any psychological exam, I'm not crazy, these antidepressants did something to alter my mind and body. I would love to know what exactly, and if it's going to ultimately kill me. With my research, I have come up with some things that my current dr. will not listen to me about, it's like they are scared to blame the antidepressants.....I feel I suffered and possibly still suffering from accute brain syndrome, I still have vertigo, weight gain, psychosis (this comes and goes) not as bad as it use to be, confusion (comes and goes) akathisia, and agitation....I need answers, I'm terrified, and I cry everyday because I am not normal anymore and I hurt so much. I forgot to mention that my current dr. prescribed Klonopin, which is probably why I'm still alive today, otherwise I do believe I would have ended my life, because living like this isn't worth living. Klonopin helps, but doesn't take it away. I don't like being dependant on drugs to get me through life, although I realize I have a medical condtion and most likely need this, it's hard to swallow knowing that. I pray for everyones health and God bless. Kristy