your symptoms sounds an awful like withdraws to me. I know I experienced (am experiencing) very similar symptoms from oxycontin wd's. I feel like the wd's are making me bipolar and manic.
if you're not using any drugs then you maybe should be. I know they have lotsa stuff to treat all those things (bipolar, bpd)? Lamictal, klonopin (Clonazepam), zoloft, zanex (benzodiazepines).
ex girlfriend had similar problems and took lots of drugs. though they didn't really seem to make her feel better; but helped he panic attacks.
I don't currently have a therapist. I had one that I started to trust but she violated that.
Now I'm waiting for my insurance to kick in (July 1st) before I search for a new one.
I'm most likely going inpatient on Monday because I'm having a really bad breakdown.
Ativan doesn't mess with me. It only makes me groggy which is good. It's the only thing that's helped me with my mania. I have an appointment for the 20th with my pdoc. Yesterday he was considering as to whether or not he'd still see me. I'd missed a previous appointment. no-call/no-show. Really it was just a mistake. I thought my appointment was yesterday not Monday. ='[ But I can't wait two weeks. I've already waiting two months. I just can't. =/
I am so sorry to read about your terrors. I am assuming that you are seeing a therapist. Have you discussed all of these occurances with them? Have you tried different medications? As for Ativan...I have problems with that. I get paranoid and see black shadows. Meds can really mess with your head. I hope you can get past this!!!
I've take viccodin here and there for tooth pain...but the night terrors have been occuring since childhood. When I was a child it was just a black,cloaked figure that would hold me down. It stopped for years and now this is happening. But it happens even when I haven't been on viccodin...so that's not a possibilty. =/ I wish it were that simple. But thank you so much for your imput! =]
I saw demons and had similar night terrors while on Vicodin. Totally terrifying.
It's the only pill I ever flushed down the toliet willingly and with relief. I always say, "Satanic" when describing Vicodin.
The ativan is a Benzo as you know, it's also dangerous but my bet would be squarely on the Vicodin.