My baby 4 months old today, and instead of celebrating my little love, I've been crying half the day. Let me explain. The other day my mom was carrying her facing forward, and my baby stiffened up and held her breath. Then She did it with me a couple of days later. She doesn't do it with my dad. So I asked in the preemie moms group I belong to of anyone else has experienced this. My baby was 35 weeks& 1 day at birth. So adjusted she's 12 weeks. Most said it's probably stimulus overload or you're waking fast and creating a breeze that takes her breath away. Then one woman said it sounds like infantile. So I got to looking and read about it and watched videos and hadn't seen anything similar, until today. I was able to get it on video, her arms stretch forward and her legs pull up, and her chin tucks in. These are signs of a spasm. So I called the Children's hospital nurse line, and told them and they said to continue videoing her. So I have been. But while I was feeding her earlier she kind of spaced out. Her eyes stared blankly, and she didn't blink them until I moved her. Almost like she was asleep with her eyes open. But that can be a form of seizure too. I'm terrified for my baby. I'm terrified for me, my husband, and our families. We see the pedi on Tuesday for her 4 month check up and shots. I have a laundry list of questions and tons of video. I'm just so scared.