What is wrong with me? Any help greatly appreciated!!

[Blue727]

I tried to ask a doctor a question in this forum, but I figured after many, many tries, that I would probably find out what was wrong before I actually got a chance to post.  I know there are many symptoms, which makes it hard to diagnose, but I was hoping through all the great people here that I might find some good answers, opinions, etc...  Up until tomorrow, I have never had an MRI, but they were very easily satisfied with telling me it was depression and anxiety. You would think after all the medicines I was on (listed below) something would have helped if that were the case. The doctor told me today she believes it's MS. So far that means I have been told it sounds like thyroid (as you can see by the results below it's borderline low), lyme disease (saw statistics and there hasn't been a case in Montana for many years), toxin problems, adrenal problems, sinus problems (which I highly doubt could be affecting my eyes and ears) and I was placed on B-12 injections for low B-12. I have a deviated septum and a polyp, but I'm sure fixing those won't change much. Please let me know what you think of my post.

I'm really not sure where to go from here, but I'm hoping someone out there can help me out! After seeing the previous posts in this forum, I thought I would share and maybe we could compare notes and come up with something. Here is my long pathetic story, please forgive me.

I'm a 27 year old male. About the year 2003, I went out drinking one night, woke up the next morning and thought I could have done something really bad (not sure what, but my mind just ran). This was very debilitating and made it so I missed some work. I actually believed I could have done this stuff. However, after worrying about it for a couple of weeks, my life went back to normal. I went to the doctor and was placed on one anti-depressant/anti-anxiety pill after another.  I broke my nose shortly before this episode.  Not sure it has anything to do with this, but we were living in a place that was later condemned, as the pigeon presence and droppings were uncontrollable.

I realized during this time that when I drank, I would worry and think the worst case scenario. It was like I was halucinating for days after consuming alcohol.

Since 2002, I had two daughters, grandma died, got engaged, got divorced, bought a house, had to sell the house after divorce, my ex got engaged two months later and married less than one year later, my parent's got divorced after 27 years of marriage, my daughter was born emergency c-section and hospitalized with pneumonia. During this time I had a job I completely hated. I literally felt like the world was on my shoulder's and collapsing very fast.

Since 2003 I was on the following medications with little to no help (not on all at the same time, almost one right after the other);

Xanax
Paxil
Cymbalta
Buspirone
Clomipramine (had to go to E.R. on this stuff after one dose)
Clonazepan
Mirtazipine
Zoloft
Zyprexa
Seroquel
Prozac
Celexa
Toprol XL
Welbutrin
Lexapro
Risperdal
I have also taken Lunesta, Ambien, Prilosec (daily), Nexium, Zantac and Amoxicillin.

I will have to post again to finish....sorry, but thanks in advance!

[medco]

you sound fine, physically - just stressed. i would try to stick to one anti-anxiety medication, and SSRI in particular,  for six weeks and see how it goes (e.g. paxil, prozac, etc.)

[hatgal]

You belong on the anxiety forum, not neurology forum.  You must get your life together; it sounds about as bad as mine, but I cope with the help of anxiety meds.  It is very hard to find the right med and that is why the docs have had you try all of the above.  I hope you gave them the full 8 weeks to kick in because you cannot know until then if it is the right one for you.

You must take control of your life - now!  Make a list of what your responsiblities are (and your children best be first on that list).  Then decide how you are going to legally and morally provide for those responsiblities.  Then follow through on your plan.  You also have to be happy with yourself and like yourself before you can provide for others properly so I advise you to get back on an anxiety med and let it do its job.  Zoloft and Clonazepan work for me and they have been around for a very long time helping people like us.

I can almost for certain say that you are physically fine - I've been through it all.  So, get yourself up, dust yourself off, and start out completely fresh - you owe it to yourself and your children.  Forget about what the past has dealt you - learn how to live in the present with satisfaction that at the end of the day you have done the best you can.

Best to you......