How to fix yourself?

[outerstellar]

I  had anorexia and then bulimia and now I'm stuck bouncing between the two so far my stomach swells with any solid food or just water bloats looks like an African child's then if I take laxatives because I've abused them so much from purging I can't go naturally and they are no
Longer effective how do I eat without feeling guilty basically I have to learn how to eat all over again I just desperately need balance

Try to eat vegetables and fruits or soups. They give your body the right vitamins without the bloating and you'll feel better in a couple days!

[3maciator]

I have an eating disorder as well. I'd suggest seeking help from a therapist, dietician, and psychiatrist. If you have health insurance, often they can provide these resources at a low cost.

Until you can get help, eat a balanced diet from the food pyramid. You can even look up bulimia recovery meal plans. Eat consistently throughout the day, regarding food as fuel rather than a source of comfort or punishment. Focus both on calories AND macronutrients. 2000 calories is a good starting goal.

[Paxiled]

You need a good therapist so you can get over whatever is the reason you're doing this to yourself.