Anyone advice please

[anxious207]

If anyone can give their opinion please. I went out one night with a few co workers. Not great friends. We are all girls but we work together and joke around at work so one night after a meeting we went out to a restaurant/bar to have a few. We were only there for two hours and in that time we had ordered some shots and the last hour at the bar I don't remember. So the next morning i am hungover and like "oh no" automatically I get this thought in my head that a stranger must have taken me to the bathroom to have sex or something. Out of no where this thought takes over my head. I definately did not feel as though I had sex the night before. I felt fine. This thought would not leave my head! I am also very happily married to a wonderful man. I have never cheated on anyone in my life nor would I ever imagine doing such a thing now in my right mind! So this thought is eating away at me and I think to myself "why this thought?" most people would probably be worried that they had said something stupid or what not. Anyway, I went to work and asked the two women if I did anything stupid and they said not at all. I was fine.
     So you think that would ease my mind but it did not. I asked one woman a few days later, "I didn't do anything bad did I?" She said no not at all. I then told her my fear and she told me that we had all gone to the bathroom together, that their was hardly anyone even there and that at no point was I alone where something like this could of happened.
    So you would think that would ease my fear but it didn't. I must have asked them on 5 seperate occasions and everytime they said I was fine.
    That was three months ago, Since then I haven't been able to get that thought out of my head. I have been in therapy and he says i am obsessing. I went to a hypnotist and she said I need to trust myself and these other women. I cant take meds because my husband and I just found out we are pregnant. I used to be on Klonopin but now I cant take it and thats just a quick fix to a problem anyway. I am so mad at myself for going out and drinking. I hate myself.
    Any suggestions or opinions are really really appreciated. Help someone please.....

[PurellGirl]

Again, I'm sure these ladies would not intentionally lie to you. I doubt they are that much of heartless human beings.

RELAX! Go enjoy life. :)

[anxious207]

Thank you. I know nothing happened and its all in my head. There isn't even a guy to ask. I automatically assume the worst. I hate the fact I let myself lose control of my mind and am having such a hard time dealing with it. (the unknown). I am just trying to dig deep and find a way to make myself trust what these ladies said. that I did not do anything wrong. Why would they lie? Why wouldn't they tell me if I did something stupid? They said at no point was I alone, why cant I just accept that answer? Thank you for your advice, I appreciate it. The hard part is that they are not my close friends, just co workers who probably now think I am nutts. But I dont care, my life depends on it.

[PurellGirl]

Hi, I have gone through a similar experience. What happened with me is I just straight up asked the person I was worried about if anything had happened and he said no. That did not completely erase my fear, but it did ease it.

What helped for me was to find something else to focus on. If you ever start thinking about that night, just automatically tell yourself to stop and think of something else.

Also, are you afraid you have contracted something or are you just afraid of the possibility of cheating? If it's the first one, just get tested. It may ease your mind. If it's the 2nd one... then listen to your friends. I'm sure they wouldn't lie to you about something that is effecting you so much.