Ideally a psychologist would be a first good step because they teach coping skills and usually psychiatrists are the medication people. You can ask the person you are going to see whether they teach cognitive behavioral therapy.
Is therapy an option for you where you live?
Thanks for your support. But I feel like I will end up loosing her since many irrational thoughts are coming in my mind. Like she told me that the guy tried to touch her at inappropriate place and she stopped her and she told me that it was for only a second. I cant stop thinking about it. Where did he try to touch her? How long did he try to touch her? Is she telling me the truth or more then that happened? I picture them having very intimate moments and him touch her at all over the places. I feel like I have OCD and I will not be able to overcome it. These thoughts are killing me. I am afraid that these thoughts will not go away. And also there is moral angel too. I feel like she did something immoral. We are at the verge of breaking this relationship because I keep asking her the same questions over and over. I am not sure what to do.
You have several things going on at once. You are marrying someone you don't even know and you are expected to make it work. To me that is already a compromise. I understand that this is your culture but talk about anxiety. I think, even if you don't realize it, there is some anxiety going on in your subconscious which in turn is making you fixate on this kiss that your future wife told you about. Did she tell you what kind of kiss it was? For all you know it was a peck on the lips. But that is really here nor there. I think you have a smart, upfront wife coming your way and for that you should be grateful and I'm sure with effort on both parts, you can make it work. Marriage is a compromise...never forget that. Even if you are in different cultures. If one person is doing all the compromising, the other person is not happy.
Of course you will love her once u get to see her and spend time with her you will forget about all your worries. Try not thinking about it even thou I know it's hard but disturb yourself every time the thought comes to your head. Everything will be fine don't worry
Thanks Sweetheartgirl and JGF25. Your answers really helped. The reason I am worried about is the values I was raised with. I am worried that I am starting my life with a compromise. Would I be able to love her as much in the future. Since this is arrange marriage and we are leaving far from each other, this fear of unknown is really disturbing me. I feel like I will end up ruining her life because of my thinking and over analyzing things.
I think what Sweetheartgirl wrote is spot on. Good luck and there is certainly nothing to be jealous of. You are getting the girl in the end! :) Rest easy my friend. Things will all fall into place.
Yes these thoughts will go away as soon as you stop caring about it so much, I understand what u mean by wanting a pure wife. But things happen in life and you have to forgive people, maybe she was so in love with her previous partner she though he'll be the one for the rest of her life and wanted to stay pure to him. As he backed out I bet she was heart broken and thought no one else will want her, she could've kept that kiss as a secret but she told you that shows how much you mean to her she didn't wanna have no secrets. If you tell her that you don't want he because she's not pure she's gonna go through the same thing over again. Just put her past behind and start fresh, she's still pure as she was never touched sexually.