HOCD?

[fairystar49]

Hi there. I have been having a bit of a dilemma and I need your advice. In all my 24 years of being alive I have always been straight. From dating guys to having sex with guys to having crushes on guys. Point being I’ve always had a strong attraction to guys, but now that’s not the case. When I was at my work place I was helping a girl with a return and the way she acted and dressed was very cute and I thought it was attractive and when I had that thought it now came to “you thought she was attractive/you were attracted to her that’s means you’re gay”. I have been struggling with this for the past 4 days and I don’t know what to do. I had something like this before but it went away after a while, but all I know is that I’ve always liked guys and I know for me it’s more natural than being with a girl and I can’t imagine being with a girl. It’s not comfortable for me than being with a guy. But what I’m going through right now is getting worse because every time I see a pretty girl am I automatically going to be attracted to them or what? I don’t know. Please respond soon. It’s just killing me it’s like my heart doesn’t even know I’m straight anymore. Please help.

[fairystar49]

Now it’s just feels like I like girls now but I don’t want to I don’t want anything to do with them

[fairystar49]

I’m not seeing one right now it’s just it’s just becoming more real for me and I don’t know what to do. I’ve never had a crush on a girl, I’ve never wanted o date a girl or anything of the sort. I have always liked guys and I want to stay that way but it’s just feels like I’ve gone from straight to gay in one week and I door knob what to do.

[fairystar49]

It’s juts that I know I am straight since the day I was born and since this happened I have been on a roller coaster and it feels like I have gone lesbian but I know I’m not. I just want to feel like a real hetero again cause I know that’s what I am. I don’t want to be with a girl. I am married to a wonderful guy and I just want to go back and focus on that cause I know me being a heterosexual is real. Not be “being a lesbian”. That’s false. I know what’s true I just need to feel it again.

[specialmom]

People of the same sex can admire someone of the same sex, find the attractive, etc. and it doesn't mean they are gay.  That's immature, whomever said that.  Really.  I think other women are beautiful and I'm a happily married (to a man) mom.  No biggie.  Don't overthink life.  Being gay is not thinking someone is attractive.  You could even have fantasies of same sex sexual activity and be completely heterosexual.  Thinking and doing are two different things.  No worries.  

[fairystar49]

Really? :)