I'm 13, for about two months i have had thoughts about being gay. They wont stop, i keep going on an HOCD website to make myself feel better. I have looked at gay porn and did not get an erection. When i look at gay porn , my thoughts tell me I like it. I have never been to a therapist, I do supercissus things all the time, they make me feel better about these thoughts. I have talked to my parents, they say its a part of growing up. When I think of these thoughts i get a wired gut feeling and become anxious. My stomach starts to feel hollow. The thoughts are like a switch. When I think about these thoughts, i start to find men attractive, if im not thinking about them. there not. I have talked to a gay man online before about my thoughts. He said he felt the same way which makes me very scared. Some nights i cry in bed for almost an hour because im scared of what will happen to me. If i masturbate about a man, i can get to the "climax". which makes it even worse. Some times its like a train going on a hilly moutain, the thoughts will be very bad one week, and then go back down, and then go back up. I have had thoughts of suicide but got rid of them by praying to god. I keep looking for answers about these thoughts but i can not tell if this is what gay people go though or not. Two more things i should add, i can not get rid of the thoughts unless i am doing something to distract myself, like playing a game or talking to someone. And i asked my parents to take me to a therapist , they said these thoughts are a stage , and will go away. They told me that two weeks ago.