it looks like ocd , as you can see you have dealt with ocd for last 3 months by yourself but the problem is increasing day by day, i think its the time to consult a psychiatrist , treatment of ocd is combination of therapy and medicine , you can also take help from the book"Overcoming Obsessive Thoughts: How to Gain Control of Your OCD" by christine purdon.
Thank you for the reply and sorry for the post being so long.. I am only 16, when people tell me to just go get tested its not that simple 1: I'm terrified for the results 2: how do I tell my mom what I want to be tested for? Do you think my brain could of comepletly blanked any faded memories? The night is a little bit of a blur but I wouldn't say to that extent..
I deffirwntky have recurring yeast infections, but I heard that is a late stage of hiv and if I did contract it, it is only 3 months ?? And I feel I have swollen lymph nodes that are hard movable but comepletly painless, I am shaking and crying with fear every night and can't even look into my parents eyes I am so hopeless I don't know what to do
you don't have hiv, its ocd which is hitting you hard, you need to tell your parents that you have a fear of getting hiv, you need to consult a psychiatrist otherwise it will affect your life very much.
So is recurring yeast infections not an early sign? It's just so odd because I only started to get them 2 weeks after this night ..
Your mind is playing tricks on you. Are you taking any antibiotics, douching, anything like that that would mess with the pH or normal flora of your vagina? These could cause yeast infections.
Do you know HIV is contracted? Here is a little bit of information for you regarding HIV. If you were to take a needle with HIV tainted blood in it and stick yourself with it, you would have less than 1% chance of becoming HIV positive. In order to get HIV from sex, you would have to have sex with an HIV positive person and that virus would have to get deep into the tissue to cause infection.
You worried about Herpes before. You have OCD but if you are worried about telling your parents your fears, then tell them you have generalized anxiety and that you would like to see a doctor to get some help. A psychologist is best but if you have to start with your general practitioner, then do that. It does not go away on its own. You will continue to think up more scenarios to drive yourself mad with.
Excessive anxiety can cause you to have "symptoms" of the diseases you think you have. Or make you think you have symptoms. If you are continuously palpating your lymph nodes they are going to get enlarged. You need to see your doctor and I'm sure he/she will refer you to a therapist.