Hi there.. this is my first post in this community. I'm a 27 yrs old male having severe OCD, mainly contamination and cleaning issues. I'm struggling with the problems for abt 3 years.. but the severity is much for last 2yrs. Some of my OCD things are common, but some are a bit exceptional. The much painful thing is some weird symptoms are adding day by day. Like firstly it was limited mainly in cleaning my hands and many parts of my body for several hours. Gradually the time just increased. I started to wash the taps, mugs, buckets in toilet and kitchen too with soap as I feared the water might be splashed while I washing my hands. These water splashings irritate me heavily still now. Actually the main reason of my long term washing rituals are mainly these water splashing. I just wonder about the fact that before 3 or more years I didn't notice or think of these water splashing problems. But since my OCD had started, all my focus had somehow been transferred to little things. I think that some water drops might be splashed while washing my hands here and there and contaminate the touched things. So I have to wash my mouth, tap, forearms etc while I only needed to wash my wrists. I know these thoughts might be irrational and when I'm a bit less stessed I think that I'll be not engaged on the painful rituals further but in vain. The things just appear again and again and befuddle me like I'm a cursed one, a complete psychopath! I had to quit my undergrad mainly because of OCD and some severe depression issues. Also I have severe contamination issues. I just lose myself in chain reaction of contamination and isolate myself in a corner of my room not touching many things. I think that I might contaminate the things around me when I have some kinda germs (mainly in my thought) in my clothes. Too much I'm concerned with the contamination of bodily fluids. And a weird thing which has been added kinda recently is I don't look at the time of any analog clock to avoid wathcing some unholy time! I've just come to a stage at which I take some specific times of the clock and watch as cursed and unholy. And I try to not start any new work on those specific times. I try not to write some specific numbered words thinkung them to be demonic. Sound pretty much bizarre I know! I was kinda introvert from childhood and all these things have just made me partially sociopath, completely depressed and most of the time angry. OCD has drained my energy, patience and goodwill too much. Have some more irritating issues too but maybe period for now. Now going to my doctor and medication issues. I've visited total 3 doctors but not anyone for long. I was prescribed Escita, Setra, Clofranil, Residon, Sizonil, Riscord etc as far I remember. But some of them had quite extreme sedative and vision effects on me and for that I just stopped to take them. Firstly, I believed that medications might help me to recover. But because of the side effects and reading an article by a neuroscience researcher on the long term effects of depression medicines and hearing from a friend about the hardships he had gone through because of medicines I became a bit nervous and hence not taking medicines. My situation is extremely messy now! Don't know actually what to do. None of my doctors actually discussed on CBT or ERP deeply to treat me. I don't know that I should go to a new doc or try to recover by any other way!! Thanks in advance for any response.