How to stop OCD/HOCD!!

[PatchedSoul]

This is just tearing me apart as I'm sure it is many other as well. I just want to know how to stop HOCD please! It's ruining me and I just can't keep living like this full of fear and worry all the time. I want to be able to enjoy living again and being with a boyfriend!!

[PatchedSoul]

Thank you for that kind gesture, I appreciate that. I agree, going for professional help is the best way to go. My family is tight on money right now so I'll have to wait but when the time comes I will certainly jump at the opportunity. I hope you are able to get some help though. And I hope you are right, I hope we really do turn out ok. Truly. I would like more than anything to go back the way things were, I keep wishing that over and over again. I just hope that wish comes true. I know if I was gay it would've felt like I was living my life a lie, but I can honestly say  I felt completely natural being the way I was around guys.  Even now I wouldn't mind dating a guy, it makes me feel comfortable, I just wish I could relax my mind and stop this worry just as we all do. Thank you for  responding back, I truly appreciate it and good luck to you as well :)

[PatchedSoul]

Thank you for that kind gesture, I appreciate that. I agree, going for professional help is the best way to go. My family is tight on money right now so I'll have to wait but when the time comes I will certainly jump at the opportunity. I hope you are able to get some help though. And I hope you are right, I hope we really do turn out ok. Truly. I would like more than anything to go back the way things were, I keep wishing that over and over again. I just how that wish comes true. I know if I was gay it would've felt like I was living my life a lie, but I can honestly say  I felt completely natural being the way I was around guys.  Even now I wouldn't mind dating a guy, it makes me feel comfortable, I just wish I could relax my mind and stop this worry just as we all do. Thank you for  responding back, I truly appreciate and good luck to you as well :)

[Rywol]

Hello there, you have replied to my post on this forum so I thought I would return the favor to you. I think the best thing we can both do is go to a counselor for help. The important the we should both remember is that in the end we will both be okay and back to the way that things were. Best of luck to you in the future.

[JGF25]

Definitely talk to your parents.  It is time to go back to the counselor but you need someone that deals with OCD and can teach you cognitive behavioral therapy.  It is not uncommon to have both OCD and ADHD.  You need to be formally diagnosed so that a treatment plan can be put in place.

[PatchedSoul]

I know they sound silly and pathetic but they just hit me and I couldn't get over them so I just obsessed about them. I got depressed. I would freak out. would seek reassurance from the internet and from people (specifically my parents) I've never been diagnosed with OCD but I'm thinking I might talk to my parents about seeing a counselor, I saw one last year to help me with confidence, focus, ADHD (diagnosed for 7-8 years) self esteem, and anger outbursts towards my parents especially when I'm talking to them about school. This fear I'm having of becoming gay/bi is by far the worst obsessive fear I've had. I've become lost in myself at times. I lack sleep, exercise, sometimes hygiene, I've gone outside less and less, pulled away from my boyfriend and my friends, depression-which my mom has had forever, and I'm afraid to be alone for fear of my thoughts completely taking over  me

[PatchedSoul]

Thanks for replying and reaching out to me. I see you've helped a lot of other people on this forum. I've had other thoughts that caused me to feel like I'm losing it like a few years ago I had an obsessive fear of death, eternal life and the world ending and nuclear wars-crazy stuff like that and it has come back a few times just not as strong. Then there was fear of not looking pretty enough. I've broke down, like cried, over my looks and how no one would like me (specifically guys) and how I'm just so ugly and no matter how hard I try I'll never look good enough. I've hid in the bathroom at school a few times like between classes and silently cried. So I've obsessed over that too. That caused me to lose self confidence and I've always had low self confidence. It still hits me though, sometimes full force. It causes me to feel depressed and unimportant.

[JGF25]

Hi there.  So is this the only thought you have ever had?  I assume up until now you have always been into guys.  

HOCD is very, very common.  If you look on this forum you will see that the majority of the posts are about HOCD.  

Here is a good article about OCD in general

https://www.google.com/webhp?sourceid=chrome-instant&rlz=1C1EODB_enUS525US545&ion=1&espv=2&ie=UTF-8#q=ten%20things%20fred%20penzel

And an article written from a gay guy regarding HOCD

www.brainphysics.com/yourenotgay.php

If this thought is taking up the majority of your day, then you should talk to your parents and ask them to help you see a psychologist.  This way you can learn how to help yourself deal with the thoughts.  The key is to take the fear out of them.  Basically accept the thought (deep down you know it isn't you) but accept it and let it wash over you.  It is only a thought and cannot change who you are deep down inside.