I have had intrusive thoughts for almost a year now. I haven't been getting anxiety from them for a few months now. It's scary because I could think the most awful thing and it will lead to more awful things and I almost don't feel bothered at all. Basically, I love 'dark' photography, dark filters, taking photos of abandoned places or just taking a normal photo and making it 'darker' I love sfx makeup, obsessed with creepy things ECT. Basically I have been thinking ' what if I don't like beautiful photos because I'm a murderer?"( even tho I liked/loved bright and beautiful pictures) Ever since that thought, I have been feeling more and more like I can't like beautiful things because I'm some psychopath! This thought has been giving me anxiety because its a fresh thought but still disturbing and I can't stand it. I keep getting a feeling like ( this might sound very dumb ) I don't want to change my theme on Instagram ( its a dark theme) because I'm crazy! Whenever I look at a beautiful picture I think and feel like i can't like it or I don't. This sounds very confusing and I probably sound looney to some but its true and whenever I think about it, it gives me anxiety. The way I got rid of my intrusive thoughts ( well I never did get rid of them ) was to just become numb to them I guess.... I really do not know what to do because I'm really starting to believe that I'm psycho and only like 'dark' things. Please help! :(