Lost and confused

[Briannep1218]

I have severe OCD and depression along with it and I use to take Effexor Xr about 3 years ago and it worked so well I got off of it thinking I would be fine. My OCD got even worse so last month my doctor prescribed my the generic brand of Effexor called venefalaxine 75 mg and it made me feel high so he lowered the dose and it still made me feel funny and he said generic brands can give ypu more side effects. So he put me on fluvoxamine the generic brand of Luvox and I took it for 3 nights and woke up with a panic attack and suicidal ideations and never had a history of those before, I think I had one panic attack when I was younger. So I did not take that medication after that but I have not felt the same. I feel more depressed and my OCD is worse I feel angry and just haven't felt like myself. I went to see a phsyciatrist and he put me on the real brand Effexor XR 75 mg and it's only the second dose and I'm not feeling right I feel funny and not like myself and have a upset stomach and panic attacks and nervousness and scared. Will this go away?? Please help

[JGF25]

I can only tell you how I felt.  Do you feel jittery and more anxious?  If you are unsure, then call your doctor to confirm that what you are feeling is normal.  I'm sorry I can't be of more help but I'm not you and I'm not experiencing what you are feeling so it is kind of hard to say if something is "normal."  

[Briannep1218]

I am just really nervous and like scared and just feel not like my self. Do you think thats normal

[JGF25]

I felt very jittery...almost like I was going to jump out of my skin and of course the irrational thoughts were still there.  For some reason though I felt better in the evenings.  I did make use of klonopin during the day during that time.  I tried very hard not to take it because it made me sleepy and some days I succeeded and other days I didn't.  I would take a quarter and a half hour later take the other quarter.  Working in a lab was not really condusive to taking a tranq during the day.  I worked out in the yard on the weekends...I just tried to keep my mind occupied with reading, working, etc.  I have a job and I had to go to it so that was good.  But for me it really was BAM and I was over it.  Also, very, very thirsty during that time as well.  I almost forgot about that.  I had to have a water bottle with me all the time.  

[Briannep1218]

Im sorry I have one more question. I saw that you told someone that it's necessary evil going through the 4 to 6 weeks, what did you mean how did ypu feel during the first few weeks

[Briannep1218]

Thank you do much for your help I really appreciate it. It's scary feeling this way and depression makes you feel like your in your own world

[Briannep1218]

At the end of the month. So did your medicine help

[JGF25]

You should talk to your doctor about your thoughts.  I will tell you that during the course of my own OCD, harming thoughts were part of it.  But I am not qualified to tell you that they are part of the disorder or a side effect of meds in your case.   You know that is not you, so you need to remind yourself of that.  Also, when OCD is really off the hook and you are just full of anxiety, it leads to depression and for me at least the inability to really eat.  I think you not wanting to get off the couch is perhaps the depression part of it.  When is your next psych appointment?  

[Briannep1218]

Also is it normal for me to feel like doing nothing at all. I feel lazy and don't want to get off the couch, will this go away?

[Briannep1218]

Ok thank you do much! The other scary thing is I'm having really bad unwanted thoughts. One is hurting the ones I love and that all started after the fluvoxamine and that's not me I would never have these thoughts but they are scaring me. My OCD is worse then ever and I feel like I'll never get better. It's like I know who I am I know how I really think and feel but my mind telling me different

[JGF25]

Hi there....Our bodies change over time and so what might have been okay before, may be a bit of a struggle now.  

For example, I took 150 mg of Wellbutrin just fine but when it had to be upped to 300, well, my symptoms of anxiety were worsened.  I was very jittery...like I was going to jump out of my skin.   If this is how you are feeling, it should go away in about 4 to 6 weeks.  I know that seems like a long time but there is light at the end of the tunnel.  Maybe ask your psych doc for a benzo such as klonopin to help you through the really bad times.  

AND don't beat yourself up for going off meds because you felt good.  We all do that at one time or another and we all realize it WAS BECAUSE of the meds that we felt so good.