UGH. My HOCD got a bit better and came back worse! Now I sometimes think I am, but when I consider coming out and loving girls, it doesn't feel right. It's not me and I AM POSITIVE I AM NOT A LESBIAN. ITS ALL THIS STUPID OCD. I recently started Zoloft for my HOCD so hopefully that will help. I just check and check and check. I'm 13 years old and this started last year. I imagined myself loving my best friend and worried constantly. Then, I made a new friend and my OCD is completely focused on her. However, if I consider being a lesbian with her, I find it strange and only think of her as a friend. I think its just because I look up to her, as she has a good sense of style and is a really kind person. Worrying takes up most of my day. I just want this to go away. Please PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!!!
ALSO THIS IS MY OCD FAMILY HISTORY:
-My dad had HOCD and many other forms.
-My sister...I don't know what she has. She won't tell me.
-My mom. She has sickness OCD, and constantly fears having cancer.
-My uncle
-My aunts
-My cousins
AND MORE
P.S This isn't my first form of OCD. When I was 5, I worried that I wanted to marry my mother. When I was 9, I constantly worried that I was overly attracted to the same gender, and was sex crazy (lol). Last year, I feared day and night that my mother was going to die if I wasn't a perfect citizen, picking up pencils that others had dropped and more.