Do I have OCD, or am I actually sick?

[scaredsadgirl]

Allow me to rephrase that. I do have OCD, I know I do.
From being in fourth grade, feeling the need to stick my tongue out every twenty seconds because I felt I was going to swallow my tongue and die, to have a full blown panic attack because I swore I left the stove on and would burn my house down even though I didn't use the stove at all that day or even week.

I always think I'm dying. It's usually a heart attack/stroke, but sometimes it's other things, like a brain tumor or epilepsy.

Lately I've been terrified that I have HIV. A few years ago I not only had unprotected sex, but I also got a home tattoo with a few friends by some guy my close friend knew. I don't know if he used the same needle or not, but he tattooed a few of my friends that night and works in a tattoo shop as well.

I've had a couple tests and they've all tested negative, but I know it doesn't always show until 10 years. Now even though I myself AM scared of HIV, I'm more scared that I gave it to my ex girlfriend. I've had sex with her many times, but she only went down on me once, and I did not ***, although I was very wet so some of my juice went in her mouth.
I'm terrified that I ruined her life and I'm thinking about how I'd tell her and how I'd kill myself.
I'm currently on vacation and I can't even enjoy myself because I'm so scared I ruin the girl I love's life.

Is this OCD? Or am I actually a terrible person?

[123tushar07]

I think you need to consult a psychiatrist, it looks like ocd

[Paramedic22]

Hi I'm really sorry that this has been going on wi you I've got Ocd and this is completely normal for people with odd my psychologist has told me its your brain sends messages to your body but with old it sends a wrong message which gives you horrible thoughts you should keek medical help I hope things get better for you :)