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Scared, please help
First of all i want to tell you that i have an OCD and i always think too much about bad things. I just can´t take them out of my mind. And this week i started worrying again, i think i was getting better but im reducing the medication as my doctor told me and maybe that´s why im worrying too much. But i have to be strong and go on, as i am 19 and i have to study. Also sorry for my english level.
Well i want to say that i´m not an addict and i don´t need to smoke, i just do it sometimes for pleasure (one or two cigarettes monthly and i started doing that this year, last year was even less) or when i go out. Now i think that i will quit because i just can´t handle with my ocd. But two weeks and a half ago i woke up on the morning to go to the university and a friend called me because he was late and he told me if i can pick him up. Well i wake up like 7.15 in the morning, have a coffee, then picked him up. I don´t remember exactly when but it was 7.55 or 8 and we smoked in the street before coming in.
This monday night i don´t know why i read this post about a study of Penn State http://news.psu.edu/story/270995/2013/03/29/research/smoking-immediately-upon-waking-may-increase-risk-lung-and-oral
Also that night i went out with friends and smoked at night, one or two cigs. I never smoke. and i will never touch one for the moment, at less i wouldnt while im with this ocd.
I know it was just one morning. But this ocd it´s killing me. If i stop smoking nothing will happen? And that NNAL or whatever will go out of my body? Or that would stay? If in this year i should have smoked 10 cigarettes moreless. As i said i won´t do that again. But please tell me something so i stop worrying and i can keep studying cause i have tests in two weeks and i can´t concentrate. Thanks.
Well i want to say that i´m not an addict and i don´t need to smoke, i just do it sometimes for pleasure (one or two cigarettes monthly and i started doing that this year, last year was even less) or when i go out. Now i think that i will quit because i just can´t handle with my ocd. But two weeks and a half ago i woke up on the morning to go to the university and a friend called me because he was late and he told me if i can pick him up. Well i wake up like 7.15 in the morning, have a coffee, then picked him up. I don´t remember exactly when but it was 7.55 or 8 and we smoked in the street before coming in.
This monday night i don´t know why i read this post about a study of Penn State http://news.psu.edu/story/270995/2013/03/29/research/smoking-immediately-upon-waking-may-increase-risk-lung-and-oral
Also that night i went out with friends and smoked at night, one or two cigs. I never smoke. and i will never touch one for the moment, at less i wouldnt while im with this ocd.
I know it was just one morning. But this ocd it´s killing me. If i stop smoking nothing will happen? And that NNAL or whatever will go out of my body? Or that would stay? If in this year i should have smoked 10 cigarettes moreless. As i said i won´t do that again. But please tell me something so i stop worrying and i can keep studying cause i have tests in two weeks and i can´t concentrate. Thanks.
Hi there...in your post you say "i think i was getting better but im reducing the medication as my doctor told me and maybe that´s why im worrying too much." I assume you are referring to your medication for OCD. How come you are going off of it if I may ask?
Also, any amount of smoking can be bad for the lungs since cigarettes do contain carcinogens but the lungs have a great capacity to heal and so the amount you were smoking is very small compared to what most people smoke and if you stop your lungs will have the time needed to heal themselves. You are catastrophizing the situation. Very normal for OCD but just wondering why you are going off meds.
Also, any amount of smoking can be bad for the lungs since cigarettes do contain carcinogens but the lungs have a great capacity to heal and so the amount you were smoking is very small compared to what most people smoke and if you stop your lungs will have the time needed to heal themselves. You are catastrophizing the situation. Very normal for OCD but just wondering why you are going off meds.
Hey - glad you are a little less worried.
I've gone through this OCD as well - it really makes it hard to study, you are right. If you like you can send me a private message and tell me more about it, hope I can help :)
I've gone through this OCD as well - it really makes it hard to study, you are right. If you like you can send me a private message and tell me more about it, hope I can help :)
thanks lily. Every positive reply it makes my day a little less worse. It´s like when i overcome a negative thought it comes another. And most of them are unreal. Such a horrible stage of my life sincerely. I think i could be one of the best at the university but i just can´t study, that gives me a lot of impotence. I really hate myself.
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