Yeah...that is a really long time and obviously you don't have the tools you need to combat the thoughts. It is time to see a psychologist, get diagnosed, and learn cognitive behavioral therapy.
I wonder...did something trigger this like a movie or something? Usually there is some sort of trigger even if you don't remember it.
In my book if you are a good person, then there is a place for you in heaven.
This has been going on with this specific thing for about a year.
Hi there. So how long has this thought been going on? Do you have others or is this the only thought?