This is all OCD related. It is just one more thing that you find horrific and so you get stuck on it. It is good you are seeing a school psychologist. They should be teaching you cognitive behavioral therapy. Stress makes OCD worse, at least in my case. Have you been more stressed lately?
I was stress out because of the whole hocd incident but that's about it. I'm stressed out about my thoughts in my head a lot. They won't go away. He seems to be helping me a lot as well. I couldn't sleep all night and kept looking/researching answers online which is something I shouldn't be doing. I just hope this will all go away soon, I don't know how much I can take with this. It seems like it is OCD because I'm doing the same thing when I was having the hocd problems. When I first had, I spent all night looking for answers and trying to test myself every single day. Now thinking I'm transgendered, I am doing the same thing - spent an entire night researching and testing myself everyday. I do have hope that if I could get over hocd I know I can get over this as well but it just takes time. I do remember that before this, I was very happy with myself, nothing could be wrong in my life, but once ocd hits, I don't feel like myself anymore. Is that one of the sign of ocd as well?
I also want to know if thoughts can end up so real? Last night I felt like they were so real that I started vomiting and feeling very light-headed. I feel better that my case is different is that I've never had issues like this before, I was always confident in my body. Transsexualism or transgendered doesn't suddenly pop out of the blue, right? Because mine was random and suddenly. I spaced out for a second and that thought popped since as the hocd I got that from watching a movie.
That is the point of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder....we obsessive over stuff and usually it is really stupid stuff. I always joke that I never obsess over the stuff I should be obsessing about but rather I find the dumb stuff to make a big deal about. Both of my kids have been in roll-over accidents in the last 8 months and I didn't lose it. However, tell me I need a new Septic System put in and I completely go crazy. There is no rhyme or reason as to what we get stuck on. Usually it is something we can't control or doesn't fit with the norm. Continue with your therapy. If you still are having problems, then maybe you should think about medication.
Isn't ocd thoughts sudden and random as well usually??
Yes anything can trigger them and they are usually random horrific thoughts. Horrific in the sense that it is something that you would never do or something you don't want to become. Some people have checking issues, others have issues regarding money. But it isn't unusual to go from thought to thought. Once you get closure on a thought sometimes another comes up and then sometimes an old one pops back up again.