Wierd OCD about vegan

[popeye33]

Ok i never had this before, never thought about veganism but its a long story ive had a HIV scare where i convinced myself i caught HIV but in my head i know i didn't but i went through alot of stress and drove myself crazy, but this has happened twice to me now ive had 2 HIV scares but really they were no risk. anyways i wondered to my self is god punishing me? or the Universe? why am i being punished and going through this? is it because im not a vegan? and i eat chicken and steak? i start to think why am i being punished and im so confused. but i don't want to be a Vegan because i wan't to build muscle and i believe we need a balanced diet but it feels like god or the Universe is going to punish me with HIV if i don't become vegan it kinda sounds crazy but i can't get this out of my head? is this OCD? or is God or the Universe trying to tell me to go vegan?

[JGF25]

I have OCD.  I have had it since I was a teenager and I'm 52 now so I think I do know a lot about the disorder.  Having said that, everybody's OCD is different.  What I get stuck on you may just pass over without a second glance.  Some people have germ OCD...I don't.  Some people perform rituals while other have the "Pure O" form of it which is irrational thinking.  Some people have a combination of both.  And yes OCD thoughts do seem real and we do recognize them as irrational but we just can't help ourselves and stop ourselves from going to the dark side...unless we learn how to deal with the thoughts.  That is where a psychologist comes into play.  

[JGF25]

Nope, God and the Universe is not telling you to go vegan.  It doesn't work this way.  What is happening is you have a chemical imbalance in your brain, a neurotransmitter imbalance, that causes you to get "stuck" on thoughts.  While the "normal" person may think the thought and let it go, you think it, over analyze it, and finally catastrophize it.  So please do eat meat.  Eating meat is not the problem...it's the pesky neurotransmitters in your brain.  You can retrain your brain and the way you think by learning cognitive behavioral therapy from a psychologist.  That is your best starting place.  Can you see someone?  

[popeye33]

Are you educated on OCD? are there  alot of people that are same as me? like it feels so real to me but it sounds crazy at the same time, because i see alot of successful people and happy people that eat whatever and are not vegans.