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Your opinion - Do i have OCD or something else?
Hello everyone.
I am just looking for your views and opinions on if i could be suffering from OCD or something else. It's causing me anxiety typing all this but it will be a weight of my shoulders. Most Intrusive Thoughts i have read about are related to Sex or Violence but mine are very different.
The Thoughts: I am 19 and I suffer from constant thoughts about where i am traveling at fast speeds. For example imagine being on a train moving around and looking out the window seeing things fly by but imagine it quicker. Thats similar to what i imagine. I can also think about things in general going fast (like they show on TV). Just like people suffer from their thoughts constantly about violence or Sex mine are about those fast things. I know that it's not real i can of course establish that fact and of course just looking outside i can see it's not but it still scares me and causes alot of anxiety. The symptoms of Anxiety are very clear in me. The anxiety causes me to want to calm myself down or hide the thoughts, I usually search up on the internet about Mental problems to see whats up with me or anything simialr, i will try to watch TV or go on the Internet or read to distract myself, i find myself usually trying to talk to someone by text (not about the thoughts) to take my mind of it. I fear loosing control infront of someone and i think to myself "whats my life going to be when I'm older" and "Im going to be locked up" or i think that im going mad you know or suffering from Schizophrenia or something. The thoughts can be moderate or very bad, they can last days, weeks or months. I feel sorry for my family and very sorry for my girlfriend who has supported me for 3 years with the problem (which has been on and off) and feel she deserves better than me getting down and having stupid thoughts. It upsets me sometimes and can move me to tears on rare ocassions.
The History: I first had an attack when i was around 10 years old and i woke up with almost like a panic attack, i was hit by a car when i was 8 and saw a plane crash shortly after and i remember the first constant thoughts were of cars flying at me (cars no longer bother me) eventually around 12 years old my problem went and i felt fine again. I heard the song Mad World in a car on the way from an airshow which was being played quicker, obviously a remix and it always scared me and still does, the video is also of things going fast. When i was around 14 they came back again but this time about things going fast, they caused me distress and anxiety so eventually my mum decided a doctor was a good idea, the doc told me i wasnt mad and that it might be a youth problem but she refered me to a specialist who after waiting 6 months i finally got 6 to 8 sessions with to talk and try to overcome the problem. Throughout the sessions my problem was on and off, mostly moderate which was good. The lady was lovely and very nice but i never felt comfotbale being there and being able to express myself and she taught me how to control my anxiety which sometimes worked. She never diognosed me but said i was siffering from anxiety maybe caused by a car hitting me and a plane crash (both are traveling quick) and although it dodesnt bother me now it might subconsously.
The sessions ended as they had to and i forgot all about it, i had a girlfriend and we were having a great times together and i had nothing more than a little wrong for almost a year and i felt good but then it came back again but this time about traveling fast and eventually i had to tell my girlfriend the truth, she was lovely and tried to help me as much as possible (she suffers from social anxiety) and i decided to go back to the doctors to get more help and a different therpist and try to work hard with them but the doctor told me i was fine and it was just a thing because i was young and not to come back and get on with my life. So as you can imagine i lost faith in doctors. It went again came back for a few months then went again. I had almsot a year with only two weeks of the problem being bad and had a great year, meeting one of my heroes personally and being an extra in a movie (a life long dream) But two weeks ago they came back again quite bad and its been getting me down and annoyed.
I know it sounds wierd and unusual belive me i know. I have looked in to anything simialr and the only thing that slightly relates is OCD, where the thoughts cause the Anxiety which inturn causes compulsions.
I have written so much but its all pretty much there, if you have read that all thank you so much. I hope to hear your opinions. Thank you so much for reading my story and problem
All the best
CB
I am just looking for your views and opinions on if i could be suffering from OCD or something else. It's causing me anxiety typing all this but it will be a weight of my shoulders. Most Intrusive Thoughts i have read about are related to Sex or Violence but mine are very different.
The Thoughts: I am 19 and I suffer from constant thoughts about where i am traveling at fast speeds. For example imagine being on a train moving around and looking out the window seeing things fly by but imagine it quicker. Thats similar to what i imagine. I can also think about things in general going fast (like they show on TV). Just like people suffer from their thoughts constantly about violence or Sex mine are about those fast things. I know that it's not real i can of course establish that fact and of course just looking outside i can see it's not but it still scares me and causes alot of anxiety. The symptoms of Anxiety are very clear in me. The anxiety causes me to want to calm myself down or hide the thoughts, I usually search up on the internet about Mental problems to see whats up with me or anything simialr, i will try to watch TV or go on the Internet or read to distract myself, i find myself usually trying to talk to someone by text (not about the thoughts) to take my mind of it. I fear loosing control infront of someone and i think to myself "whats my life going to be when I'm older" and "Im going to be locked up" or i think that im going mad you know or suffering from Schizophrenia or something. The thoughts can be moderate or very bad, they can last days, weeks or months. I feel sorry for my family and very sorry for my girlfriend who has supported me for 3 years with the problem (which has been on and off) and feel she deserves better than me getting down and having stupid thoughts. It upsets me sometimes and can move me to tears on rare ocassions.
The History: I first had an attack when i was around 10 years old and i woke up with almost like a panic attack, i was hit by a car when i was 8 and saw a plane crash shortly after and i remember the first constant thoughts were of cars flying at me (cars no longer bother me) eventually around 12 years old my problem went and i felt fine again. I heard the song Mad World in a car on the way from an airshow which was being played quicker, obviously a remix and it always scared me and still does, the video is also of things going fast. When i was around 14 they came back again but this time about things going fast, they caused me distress and anxiety so eventually my mum decided a doctor was a good idea, the doc told me i wasnt mad and that it might be a youth problem but she refered me to a specialist who after waiting 6 months i finally got 6 to 8 sessions with to talk and try to overcome the problem. Throughout the sessions my problem was on and off, mostly moderate which was good. The lady was lovely and very nice but i never felt comfotbale being there and being able to express myself and she taught me how to control my anxiety which sometimes worked. She never diognosed me but said i was siffering from anxiety maybe caused by a car hitting me and a plane crash (both are traveling quick) and although it dodesnt bother me now it might subconsously.
The sessions ended as they had to and i forgot all about it, i had a girlfriend and we were having a great times together and i had nothing more than a little wrong for almost a year and i felt good but then it came back again but this time about traveling fast and eventually i had to tell my girlfriend the truth, she was lovely and tried to help me as much as possible (she suffers from social anxiety) and i decided to go back to the doctors to get more help and a different therpist and try to work hard with them but the doctor told me i was fine and it was just a thing because i was young and not to come back and get on with my life. So as you can imagine i lost faith in doctors. It went again came back for a few months then went again. I had almsot a year with only two weeks of the problem being bad and had a great year, meeting one of my heroes personally and being an extra in a movie (a life long dream) But two weeks ago they came back again quite bad and its been getting me down and annoyed.
I know it sounds wierd and unusual belive me i know. I have looked in to anything simialr and the only thing that slightly relates is OCD, where the thoughts cause the Anxiety which inturn causes compulsions.
I have written so much but its all pretty much there, if you have read that all thank you so much. I hope to hear your opinions. Thank you so much for reading my story and problem
All the best
CB
Best Answer
Not at all, there's not much to stress about, I thought it would start when I started my new job but it didn't, it's been almost half a year then it started and I'm more relaxed at work, happy with my family and girlfriend. Just random.
It's just a weird problem I have, just know it will ruin my career and future.
Sorry to be a depressing idiot.
Best
Cb
It's just a weird problem I have, just know it will ruin my career and future.
Sorry to be a depressing idiot.
Best
Cb
I know, but I don't know how I did it it just happened. When
It goes then comes back its so annoying and upsetting, sick
Of it you know. It's the fact I don't even know what it is or
What it could be.
Yes it was a dream, loved it
It goes then comes back its so annoying and upsetting, sick
Of it you know. It's the fact I don't even know what it is or
What it could be.
Yes it was a dream, loved it
You have to remember the past positive experiences. If you get get over it before, you can do it again. AND you got to be in a movie....must have been your dream come true. Try to remember what got you better and put that into play now.
Yes, we'll I thought I sorted it out for a while
Then it threw me a curve ball and it came back bad and I'm struggling
To cope now.
CB
Then it threw me a curve ball and it came back bad and I'm struggling
To cope now.
CB
Yes..I remember thinking PTSD. For the most part it seems you have done well. Probably have figured out some of your own coping skills.
Hello again.
Well I didn't go to the docs I think I was too scared too.
After several months later on here I began to get better and then for like a year it was great or you know I had them for a short time then brushed them off, I had around 3 weeks where they were bad but they went and then in early March it came back bad again. I just hate it, no one else can relate to my thoughts and the thoughts are so obscure and feel real but aren't and causes a lot of anxiety and cause depression especially when I think of the future and my poor girlfriend you know.
I did great things last year, like be on a film set and in the film in the back ground. I do need to seek for help more for the sake of finding out what they think it could be I always think its schizophrenia or something. but Im too scared.
I remember speaking to you, you said you thought it could be OCD/ PTSD I believe.
I wish you the best
CB
Well I didn't go to the docs I think I was too scared too.
After several months later on here I began to get better and then for like a year it was great or you know I had them for a short time then brushed them off, I had around 3 weeks where they were bad but they went and then in early March it came back bad again. I just hate it, no one else can relate to my thoughts and the thoughts are so obscure and feel real but aren't and causes a lot of anxiety and cause depression especially when I think of the future and my poor girlfriend you know.
I did great things last year, like be on a film set and in the film in the back ground. I do need to seek for help more for the sake of finding out what they think it could be I always think its schizophrenia or something. but Im too scared.
I remember speaking to you, you said you thought it could be OCD/ PTSD I believe.
I wish you the best
CB
Hello again JG i do remember you.
The reason i am posting again is i havent siffered in a while
probably why you havent noticed me around, but it came back.
I thought right i will use CB617 again but i couldnt remeamber the
pass word. Also i decided to start a new topic as i thought whats
the point in saying hi Im back some of you may remember me.
Sorry if that annoys you JG i remember you being a very nice person
through the messages.
And thanks eascusa for the adivce much appreciated.
CB
The reason i am posting again is i havent siffered in a while
probably why you havent noticed me around, but it came back.
I thought right i will use CB617 again but i couldnt remeamber the
pass word. Also i decided to start a new topic as i thought whats
the point in saying hi Im back some of you may remember me.
Sorry if that annoys you JG i remember you being a very nice person
through the messages.
And thanks eascusa for the adivce much appreciated.
CB
Hi, I just read your post and I'm sorry you have to put up with what it is your going through. it just goes to show how we all suffer in so many different ways. it isn't always text book or fit into a neat little box. A lot Like myself and all my symptoms. Oh, and don't lose faith in Doctors. I pretty much hate all doctors myself but you have no other choice but to keep trying to get help from them.I have been to about 150 Doctors in my life time between my physical, emotional and mental issues and I'm only 36 years old! And I'm not exaggerating and I'm not a Hypochondriac I swear. I guess I was born with a lot of bad luck. Not one of these doctors has really done anything to help me. But I keep on trying. I have faith that one day I will meet the right doctor. I pray constantly about it. Well this last Psychiatrist I went and saw about a week ago at least put me on some meds that might help and took me a little more serious than most of the others but still getting help takes a long time. It can be a very lengthy process. You have to have patience which of course is hard while your struggling with madness or on that thin line of sanity verses insanity. LOL :-) And I know how hard it is to have patience when your going through things that others just don't understand. It was kind of funny because after I told this doctor some of my symptoms I was struggling with which were only like half of them! He turned to me and said "Between your physical, mental, and emotional symptoms that you have shared with me I have counted already 15 different disorders! Which is impossible! So there has to be something it's all stemming from. Or at least most of them anyway. It's possible to have 2 or even 3 different disorders but not 15!" I felt like telling him "Yeah, and I only told you have of them!" So tell me about it! I'm a huge freaking mess! How do you think I feel!" LOL But then he said we will just have ti find the main reason for all these problems. The culprit so to speak. Yeah, like my husband!! That's what I wanted to say anyway. So be patient! Maybe whats going on with you will be much more clear than mine and you could get the help you need in no time at all. I do believe though than there is someting wrong you just have to figure it out. Maybe talking to a therapist would do you some good. Or even group therapy if you dont have a problem talking in a group. If it's enough to interfere with your life and make you unhappy that is all that counts and you need to deal with it in one way or another. Just my advise anyway. You deserve better than that. Your not being a wuss or too sensitive so don't ever let others say anything like that to you. They dont know what the heck they are talking about. They just dont understand. And anxiety in my opinion is one of the worst things to have to deal with, especially if it is severe like mine. To me it almost seems like you could have maybe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. But I of course would have to know more about you and what your symptoms are. I do think too that you have some severe anxiety in certain situations. It might be related to what happened to you. But like I said I would need to know more. I have been trying to help myself through many years of ******** that goes on in my own head that I have taken over 90 units in college. Most of them having to do with every Psychology class you can think of, Sociology courses and a whole lot of Human Development. I have learned more from taking these college courses than I have going to these so called doctors.I am also a huge social phobic so it wasn't easy for me to even go to school. I simply ditched the first day of class just in case I had to introduce myself and always made sure to sit next to the door in case I had to run out the door suddenly if my name was called or something. It is and was absolutely rediculous!! Nobody understands things they themselves have not gone through nor do they even try unless it is happening to themselves. I'm afraid our society has reached it's peak in selfishness and it's lack of empathy and consideration for others. Anyway, hang in there! If you ever need to talk you can e-mail me if you like.
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