counting OCD

[Lexi122332]

I recently discovered that what I have been doing all my life isn't normal and with all my long and draining research, I cannot find anyone with OCD symptoms like I do. I need help figuring out if this is really OCD. My "counting" isn't like the counting I've been reading about. I don't count everything I do or everything I see. I use the time on a clock to make almost all my decisions I have ever made. If I have to choose a direction to go; odd number is left and even number is right. I have a certain time for each section of my closets or dressers. I have never chosen an outfit and it's even prevented me from going out if the outfit doesn't match. Those new adult coloring books; I can't even chose what color I want to draw with unless I use the time.
I don't use this tactic if I'm picking between which university to go to or relationships. Only things that won't affect my life greatly. I get really bad anxiety at times but not too often and I am not diagnosed with it. I also triple check everything (not double check because 2 is a bad number to me). My boyfriend knows to give me a third kiss goodbye if he accidentally gives me 2.
On top of this, I have been recently taking a pill that works like an adderall during testing weeks. It is called modafinil (provigil). I have done so much research on this pill and there's not much results on it being harmful but it also hasn't been around for too long. I only limit myself to one of those pills a week if it is even needed. It increases my chances of feeling anxious (a side effect) but does wonders for my OCD. I'm more likely to make an impulsive decision rather than using the time which is a miracle. I have never done that until recently and only if I am using that pill that day. But I still catch myself triple checking things, maybe even more.
I just want to know if this is a possible sign of OCD and if it is, what kind of OCD can this be? I can't find anything online about using the time or numbers to be the ultimate deciding factor for life decisions. I count internally and not out loud.

[JGF25]

Hi there.  The type of OCD a person has is as individual as they are.  What may bother you, doesn't bother me.  You use the clock to count, others use the pavement.  There is no rhyme or reason as to why we do what we do.  I believe you have OCD but I cannot diagnose you on the forum.  Only a psychologist or psychiatrist can do that.  Is there any way you can see a psychologist so that you can be diagnosed and a treatment plan put in place?  OCD is something we will have for life but we can learn to live with it.  There are good medications out there that you can take everyday that will work wonders for you.  Also you should learn cognitive behavioral therapy from a trained psychologist.  Let me know....