Because you have untreated HIV anxiety and doubt is still there wreaking havoc. Learn cognitive behavioral therapy from your psychologist (I assume this is who you are seeing when you say "shrink")
Couldn't wait for results so did rapid hiv antibody test at clinic...came out negative...the nurse said I don't need any further testing...why am I still worried about my results from other test
So I went to do the hiv antibody and antigen test again...and now the horrible waiting time. I hope all those odds being on my side helps....please say a prayer...
thanks, this behaviour can become addictive...I have decided to cut all of these temptations out of my life...no strip clubs, no mps, no porn. I have been good for over 2 weeks for all 3 and keeping myself busy with my child. Hopefully I will be ok, 3 months is usually all good, thanks for your help...god bless
So you should be coming up to your three month mark and can test then. According to the hiv prevention forum here three months is conclusive. I have my doubts and fears towards that , but it will help you by getting tested at the three month mark whether u believe the window period is 3 or 6. I'm in therapy also & its not to bad. I have 22 days until my six month mark and I can put this behind me. So I can offer u ways to get through the awaful window period. For me helps to count the days down and cross them off on a calendar. Don't call the CDC they will only read right from their website. They will tell u to be sure test at six months. That's not what u will want to hear. So just keep telling yourself 97% conclusive at three months. Remember this feeling the next time u want to go see MPs. We all make mistakes and what's important is not to repeat them. Please keep in touch
I have given up on asking the girl...she says she tested and is fine. I not an expert so I can't comment on reliability of a test. I will, it will be two months at the end of this week, I will do another duo test and hope everything is ok...thanks
Stress will really cause a lot of damage. Thanks for your kind words. However I still worry everyday and plan to test again at the six month mark. Regardless if his test was negative. All I can tell u is to try to take care of yourself while waiting for the awful window period to be over. I haven't really found any good ways to cope or I would share them with you. I guess we both learned a tough lesson through our experience. I'm here if u want to talk. Do u think the oraquick tests are accurate? Maybe u could ask the girl to take one?
thanks for your words...I'm trying not to over think things now...I am eating healthy again and getting sleep and I feel great...also trying to boost my immune system...it's amazing what we can do to our bodies through anxiety and stress...
Hey I read you thread...you are ok don't worry...you have tested and don't have hiv. Take a deep breath and realize that you need to be safer next time...but life is great and you don't need anymore testing...not even at at 6 months. I'm really happy for you...you have a great long hiv free life to live for:)...thanks for your words
Hi I feel your pain. I'm going through somewhat of the same distress. Refer to my post named ocd + fear of hiv equals a big mess. Maybe we can keep each other calm.
Stress and anxiety take a heavy toll on our bodies. They weaken our immune system and open us up to sickness such as colds and things like that. It can be so bad that we are unable to eat which is also weakening our body. When this happens and you start to feel unwell the first thing you are going to do is attribute it to what is scaring you when in reality it is the anxiety that is making ou sick.
Hi thanks for your advice...I can't seem to get over this and now that she won't return any of my texts...also both of my dogs have gotten sick and I feel like bad things come in three's. I'm scared to go and get tested again...I'm freaking out about this...she is still working at the salon...she must be ok or she would be evil. I even told her I was going to have unprotected sex with my partner(which I havent because I'm scared to get her sick) and she said she ifs fine...why can't I trust her...can the stress and anxiety be what is causing me to have some symptoms....
yes I do suffer from OCD...I do have control issues...thanks
Hi there. It sounds like you have control issues. The lack of control when it comes to sex and wanting ultimate control regarding whether this woman gets back to you or not. You see you are obsessing over this while she is happy to hear you say you are negative. She has stated that she is OK so in her mind this is over and done with and also you stated the place asks the women get tested. I think you need to address this HIV issue as well with your therapist. It is more than you not being able to control your sexual impulses. Were you diagnosed with OCD?