Fear of being pregnant

[RN86]

Ive been having anxiety about being pregnant..it gets to the point where i make myself sick..its all i think about. I start to feel pregnant with most of the symptoms.. i took at least 10 pregnancy tests and all negative and even got my period and i still think im pregnant. I fear the pregnancy process, and not wanting to be pregnant at this time...i try to live my life with no stress..but this has become an issue for me

I was diagnosed with OCD a couple of years ago

I have a few things that i have to do and if i dont do it i go crazy
How can i help myself calm down without medication...I feel so sick...its getting bad :( :(
Can a doctor prescribe me something for my paranoia and anxiety :(

[emmy_ocd]

besides all this, these days i keep feeling that my tummy is heavy, i have alot of flatulence and bloating but that has always been my problem. its only now that i have started feeling that my tummy is heavy. and i feel uncomfortable all day long. is it all in my head? i also have severe PMS symptoms that start long before my period which adds to the misery since i start thinking of them as pregnancy symptoms :(

[emmy_ocd]

Thanx for the advice. and for the reassurance that i cant be pregnant. but this need for reassurance of mine is itself a part of OCD. i dont know where to go and whom to talk to and my boyfriend and i broke up a while ago too. and i am scared of disclosing it to anybody, even a psychologist.

[JGF25]

Doubt is a big part of OCD and the increased anxiety can lead you to start feeling ill.  It weakens your immune system.  Also, the checking you are doing is perpetuating the problem and making the thought stay around.  You really should see a psychologist at this point.  You have had your period for months...you cannot be pregnant especially since there was no penetration or ejaculation.  Think about seeing somebody please.  

[emmy_ocd]

And i also read on the internet that some women continue to have menses in pregnancy which is very wrong according to the doctors i consulted, but it added to my worries.

[emmy_ocd]

Hi all, the posts here are old but i have read them all now since it is now that i have found myself into a situation exactly the same as all of u. it is really crippling. my OCD is killing me. i had a sexual encounter with my boyfriend on jan 12 2013. he did not penetrate me at all, neither did he ejaculate, but i just cannot stop worrying about a pregnancy. i have had three normal periods after that and home pregnancy test turned out to be negative too. all the time i keep checking myself for symptoms and i actually believe i have many of the symptoms. i keep pressing my abdomen to palpate a mass so that i know if my uterus is enlarging. and sometimes i actually feel like my tummy is getting big. i keep searching the internet for explanations and stuff and waste so much of my time on it. it goes away when i have my period but just as it ends i start worrying again. i end up having panic attacks, worrying how i would hide it, and what if it gets too late for an abortion, what would happen etc.

did anybody here felt exactly like me, like actually having symptoms?? i am badly in distress.

[Lilwoodsmum]

Hi, I've just been reading your above comments and I can't begin to explain what a relief it is that I'm not the only one with this fear. Your descriptions of how you all feel almost made me cry. I am 29 with a beautiful 7 year old son, who I wouldn't change for the world, but my over powering fear of falling pregnant is ruining my life. It all started 4 years ago. My partner and I had a whoopsie, I wasn't on the pill at the time for health reasons. I took the morning after pill, but what followed was 3 weeks of excruciating anxiety that I was going to be pregnant. I didn't eat, couldn't sleep or function and spent the whole time in what felt like another world. I would do 3-4 pregnancy tests a day. I too came on but didn't believe it was real. Even doing tests whilst bleeding. I was prescribed with seroxat and after a while I began to feel almost normal.
I also was given the mini pill which I took religiously. Still in the back of mind the fear was there though. A few months later it returned with a vengeance as if it had been growing in my mind, waiting to explode. Again the persistent testing began, the googling everything and convincing myself I was pregnant. Obviously I wasn't but it never stopped the voice in my head. I began seeing a psychotherapist who diagnosed me with OCD. It seems whenever this fear arises is usually during a really uncertain time in my life that I have no control over, and I become fixated on the whole pregnancy thing. I think at this point it may be worth adding. After I had my son I fell pregnant again only a few months after. This has to have been the most devastating time in my life. I was already suffering with severe post natal depression and it couldn't have come at a worse time. My partner and I decided in the end that I just couldn't go through with it. I needed to concentrate on getting better and looking after my baby boy.
It is now 4 years down the line. After a year of therapy and a almost a year of no problems. It's once again bk. I'm still on the mini pill, which has a 3 hr grace window. For the first time in a long long time I took it late last Saturday night by 3hrs 20 mins. I even doubled up when I did take it. The doc said 20 minutes..I would be seriously unlucky for anything to have happened on that time. I just can get out of my head that my partner n I (of 10 yrs slept together the day before. I must add in all this he has been fantastic always stood by me even when I couldn't let him anywhere near me. I have been having pain in my pelvic region these past few days and have managed to convince myself its implantation bleeding and ice ruined my life. I just hope this passes again just like it has done time and time again in the past.