Thankyou, yeah i see a psychiatrist and a therapist but i never mentioned it to him today, i still feel sick when i think of it, really strange but i am trying to block it out. I think stress is maybe my cause i have other issues too so it could be anything. Thanks again
I had that happen (and still get those images occasionally). It's called intrusive thoughts.
My psychiatrist told me that the fact that it upset me so much shows that I'm not a horrible person (my thoughts were just awful :( ).
Do you see a psychiatrist? There are meds (even some they can put you on temporarily) that can help you get through this... sometimes they're caused by stress (or in my case, a bipolar mood disturbance).
I know it's terrifying. You're more than welcome to PM me if you want to talk about it.
Good luck...
No, I don't think you've lost it all together and I don't know much about OCD so I can't say it's because of that but I do know that whatever you saw in that picture that made you feel sick was probably something that triggered something in your mind that made you feel awful. You may think hurting yourself is the answer in the state that you're in right now BUT think about this, if you were 100% fine what would you tell yourself right now. Listen to that part of you, I know that part of you is still inside of you. That part that is still fine will help you get through it. That happy fine part of you is trapped inside you but you can still hear it deep down inside telling you to fight the monsters that are your problems. And I am also telling you to fight those problems. I know you will say that you can't anymore but at the end of the day you realize that you did and you will continue to fight.