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Is all this normal
I didn't realize how bad it was
So I know I have an obsession with cleaning , organizing, disinfecting everything, going out in public but I didn't realize there are other things.
I have been having obsessive doubts about my relationship, always needing husbands approval, I hide credit cards in fear of spending everything we have. ( this is easy because I have been having problems with my memory.)
My primary doctor diagnosed me with OCD and 2 weeks ago I went to see a therapist and I don't think I was in there 20 minutes and he said to me if you would like to end our session today, ( I didn't even let him finish talking) I got up and hauled butt. Faster than Flash Gordon.
I felt like I was going to get sick and drop dead. I am so glad he said that.
While I was in his office ( which was warm because he had the window open) my hands were freezing I am not even sure I was breathing. I was also too nervous to get my anti bacterial wipes out and open the door to freedom.
I have avoided going to the doctors for years because of this. And I felt better before now between all the doctors I see I am afraid they are going to find something wrong with me. But at the same time I fear they will miss something.
My head has never been so busy.
One last thing is since march I have been taking Wellbutrin xl 150mg x 2 times a day and since than I have become afraid of food. I don't know if it's the pills or not but it happened about a week after taking them. All I do is eat organic apples about 3 or 4 a day and I clean them peel them and slice them. I can't bring myself to eat anything else. I get sick if I do. My doctor is wondering how I dropped 40+ pounds since March 18 and I'm afraid if I tell him, he will admit me to the hospital and I can't because I would go crazy if I couldn't do all the things I need to do. Just seems like it's all getting worse. If I share this with my therapist is he obligated to tell someone? It feels good to get it out. I feel the need to let him know which is crazy and I don't know why. Sorry this is so long. Thanks for reading
So I know I have an obsession with cleaning , organizing, disinfecting everything, going out in public but I didn't realize there are other things.
I have been having obsessive doubts about my relationship, always needing husbands approval, I hide credit cards in fear of spending everything we have. ( this is easy because I have been having problems with my memory.)
My primary doctor diagnosed me with OCD and 2 weeks ago I went to see a therapist and I don't think I was in there 20 minutes and he said to me if you would like to end our session today, ( I didn't even let him finish talking) I got up and hauled butt. Faster than Flash Gordon.
I felt like I was going to get sick and drop dead. I am so glad he said that.
While I was in his office ( which was warm because he had the window open) my hands were freezing I am not even sure I was breathing. I was also too nervous to get my anti bacterial wipes out and open the door to freedom.
I have avoided going to the doctors for years because of this. And I felt better before now between all the doctors I see I am afraid they are going to find something wrong with me. But at the same time I fear they will miss something.
My head has never been so busy.
One last thing is since march I have been taking Wellbutrin xl 150mg x 2 times a day and since than I have become afraid of food. I don't know if it's the pills or not but it happened about a week after taking them. All I do is eat organic apples about 3 or 4 a day and I clean them peel them and slice them. I can't bring myself to eat anything else. I get sick if I do. My doctor is wondering how I dropped 40+ pounds since March 18 and I'm afraid if I tell him, he will admit me to the hospital and I can't because I would go crazy if I couldn't do all the things I need to do. Just seems like it's all getting worse. If I share this with my therapist is he obligated to tell someone? It feels good to get it out. I feel the need to let him know which is crazy and I don't know why. Sorry this is so long. Thanks for reading
Okay so the medication should be working but maybe at the wrong dosage so you can talk to the psychiatrist about that. I'm glad you are pursuing the physical for the weight loss. You absolutely have to rule that out first and then deal with the mental aspect of it. When I lost weight it was because I had no desire to eat and nothing had any flavor to me. Hopefully you have another appt with the psychologist. There is nothing to be afraid of. People shake and cry uncontrollably but the more familiar you get with this person, the better you will feel. Keep us posted.
I am seeing a therapist who specializes in OCD . He asked me about ending the session because I was shaking so bad I couldn't control it. I guess that is why he asked. That was my first visit with him.
I have been taking wellbutrin xl 150mg twice a day since March 18, 2015. My PCP prescribed it. I am waiting to see the psychiatrist which is May 22nd.
I don't understand the fear of food. But if I touch it I start getting nauseous so most of the time I wear gloves when preparing food. It's crazy because that 40+ pounds has turned into 50 pounds as of today.
I went to the emergency room the other day and I was told that I had bilirubin in my urine and the emergency doctor told me to make sure I tell my doctor. But I also had a ct and everything on that was normal. They also found a high amount of protein in my urine.
My doctor wants to run more test.
I have been taking wellbutrin xl 150mg twice a day since March 18, 2015. My PCP prescribed it. I am waiting to see the psychiatrist which is May 22nd.
I don't understand the fear of food. But if I touch it I start getting nauseous so most of the time I wear gloves when preparing food. It's crazy because that 40+ pounds has turned into 50 pounds as of today.
I went to the emergency room the other day and I was told that I had bilirubin in my urine and the emergency doctor told me to make sure I tell my doctor. But I also had a ct and everything on that was normal. They also found a high amount of protein in my urine.
My doctor wants to run more test.
Okay...first thing is you do need to see a therapist. Why did he ask you if you wanted to end the session? Do you know? I know you wanted to get out of there but just trying to figure out why this person didn't continue with the session. Also is the person you saw an OCD specialist?
I also take Wellbutrin but the 300 mg extended release tablet once a day. How long have you been taken it? I'm wondering if you are on the right dosage because you shouldn't have this many problems even without learning CBT first.
Your weight loss tells me that you are in a crisis situation. If you cannot eat and are dropping that much weight (I have been there) then you do need to get a handle on this.
Who is prescribing the Wellbutrin? Your primary care doc?
I also take Wellbutrin but the 300 mg extended release tablet once a day. How long have you been taken it? I'm wondering if you are on the right dosage because you shouldn't have this many problems even without learning CBT first.
Your weight loss tells me that you are in a crisis situation. If you cannot eat and are dropping that much weight (I have been there) then you do need to get a handle on this.
Who is prescribing the Wellbutrin? Your primary care doc?
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