For a while now I've had thoughts in my head that'll never go away.

[Steven13]

The thoughts are Intrusive! They're disturbing! I always get this feeling in my head that tell's me over and over you're Gay. I used to Ignore it. I recently started school and its back and its harder on me. i feel anxious, like my chest is tight and i feel like i can't learn because all i think about are my thoughts going in circles. i sit next to this dude, who i assume is Gay and my mind and body feel very uncomfortable. I feel like i can see him in the perimeter in my vision and i don't want to even want to look that way or think about it. I just want to pay attention in class. My mind is trying to prove me that I'm Gay and It's driving me crazy. I know I'm not Gay but i want to feel normal. I feel very depressed. I'm glad i have a good girlfriend, i can tell her the things that are going in my head. She doesn't think anything different about me. She thinks that i need someone professional to talk to. I feel relaxed, when i tell my mind you're right and I'm Gay, VS denying it.  I just started doing that because it makes me feel anxious and the thoughts get more intrusive!! There are some days where ill be just fine like today, and out of nowhere my mind will bring up a memory or an intrusive thought. And it gets me every time. Then there are days, where ill think, i haven't had a gay thought in a while and then boom! i just want to get better and feel normal. I don't know if i have some type of OCD or not. I've done some research and ive seen some blogs that seem similar to mine. If anyone can help, please.

[JGF25]

You are absolutely doing the right thing by accepting the thought.  What you are doing is taking the fear out of it.  You know you are not gay and saying you are doesn't make it so as you have learned because you have better days when you stop fighting a war with your mind and just "accept" the thought for what it is...a thought.  It is not fact but a fiction we make up in our heads.  

Therapy will definitely help you though.  Stress can make the thoughts worse so it is always good to learn how to combat them with a therapists help.