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Suicidal Intrusive scary thoughts
Hi I am new to this group. I have been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and panic attacks but I think I have OCD because I have intrusive thoughts among other OCD symptoms. Recently after reading something that said that people that have panic disorder may commit suicide, I have been having the scary thoughts of what if I commit suicide which I don't want to but the thought of what if scares me and gives me anxiety to the point were I am loosing appetite and feel like crying because I am so scared of the what if thought. I am seriously feeling like I'm the only one that is going through this. Does anyone else have this or had experienced this?
Okay, stay on the prozac. Keep your doctor in the loop. It will take 4 to 6 weeks to build up and yes you may have increased anxiety but perhaps they can give you a benzo to help you during the really bad times until it is built up in your system. Have you ever discussed this with them?
I am already on medication I stopped taking Prozac like 2 months ago because of some caregiver problems but yesterday I started taking Prozac again. So now I am afraid of the bad side effects that Prozac may give when you start on it like more anxiety and suicide stuff, even tho I took it for like 4 years and didn't have any serious side effects like suicide stuff. Still I am afraid of the side effects it might cause tho. The anxiety just never stops.
Glad to hear you are in therapy. HOpefully they are teaching you cognitive behavioral therapy. It is work. You don't learn the tools overnight but rather you practice them and retrain your brain so to speak by altering the way you think (or don't think!) about things.
Stay away from the internet. Don't Google anything anymore because it is just feeding into your anxiety and keeping you in the OCD loop. Plus you will never key in on the positive things but rather only the negative ones so what good is that?
There is also medication if down the road you want to try that route.
Stay away from the internet. Don't Google anything anymore because it is just feeding into your anxiety and keeping you in the OCD loop. Plus you will never key in on the positive things but rather only the negative ones so what good is that?
There is also medication if down the road you want to try that route.
Thanks for answering and a psychiatrist diagnosed me and I am going to a therapist every two weeks not seeing her in another week tho. Today I woke up with the thoughts in my dreams and making me really scared and anxious I feel like my stomach turns or something horrible feelings. I have tried not to try to make the thought go away since I've read that makes it worse and when ever I have it I try to just let it pass trying to not to worry about so much but its really hard the thoughts are all day so I am always anxious. Plus I spend all my time on the internet reading everything about OCD and suicide stuff which I think makes it worse but I can't help it. I hope this goes away or gets better.
Hi there and welcome. Sorry you are going through this. So who diagnosed you and are you in treatment with a psychologist or psychiatrist?
Here is what I have learned about OCD over the years. We want to control everything. We want to prepare ourselves for every eventuality. We take a scenario and we move it forward like a train to the next stop, and the next, until finally we have reached the catastrophic end to the scenario.
Your thought of "what if I commit suicide" is just another thought in a long line of thoughts I'm sure you have had. People with OCD do not act on the thoughts. The things we come up with are horrific to us but we don't act on them. We fear them. And the only way to get rid of the thought is to get rid of the fear.
When I thought I would hurt the people I love, as part of therapy I went into a dark room and imagined myself hurting the people I love. I did it several times a day. If I became anxious, I did controlled breathing. But what happens is after a while it becomes boring. You realize it isn't in you, you are not that person, and you move on. You need to face the fear, tell it "Whatever" and move on. If you stay with it, think about it, move it down that train track, you are going to have problems. Stop it right when it starts.
A good book is Self-Coaching by Joseph Luciani. You can download it as an E-book.
Here is what I have learned about OCD over the years. We want to control everything. We want to prepare ourselves for every eventuality. We take a scenario and we move it forward like a train to the next stop, and the next, until finally we have reached the catastrophic end to the scenario.
Your thought of "what if I commit suicide" is just another thought in a long line of thoughts I'm sure you have had. People with OCD do not act on the thoughts. The things we come up with are horrific to us but we don't act on them. We fear them. And the only way to get rid of the thought is to get rid of the fear.
When I thought I would hurt the people I love, as part of therapy I went into a dark room and imagined myself hurting the people I love. I did it several times a day. If I became anxious, I did controlled breathing. But what happens is after a while it becomes boring. You realize it isn't in you, you are not that person, and you move on. You need to face the fear, tell it "Whatever" and move on. If you stay with it, think about it, move it down that train track, you are going to have problems. Stop it right when it starts.
A good book is Self-Coaching by Joseph Luciani. You can download it as an E-book.
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