Violent and Scary thoughts - PLEASE HELP!

[nomarsdude5]

Hello everyone, I really need some help and support and I need to know what I should do.  I am 16 years old, and about a month ago i randomly started having extremely scary and violent thoughts(i cant believe i am typing this).  I was so scared when I would be at a dinner table with my loving family, that I would hurt them with the knife.  Other such instances has happened between then and now, and I am so scared.  I have to take sleep medication at night for fear I will hurt my family in my sleep.  I cannot stand it, and I am so afraid to even be near people anymore, even my friends.  I hate myself, what is going on with me!  I cannot take it anymore.  I cry basically everyday about it wondering where I went wrong, and why I am like this.  I don't want to hurt people, I spent my whole summer volunteering at a hospital!  Please help me, what should I do?  Am I going insane? :(

[Morganic]

Thank you so much for your bravery for posting this. I have been thinking similar things about knives and I worry that I will hurt someone, and I feel scared of being in my own skin. I'm not a violent person, I'm don't even get angry (just thoroughly annoyed) and I'm terrified that one day I will lose control. Just reading your post has helped me feel safe and calmed. I honestly can't thank you enough for being so brave.

[nervouswreck158]

Hi everyone,
I have a question, I have been trying to figure out if I have OCD, Anxiety, paranoia or some combination of the 3.  I do not have a fear that i will actually harm someone, I am quite sure that I would never do anything like that.  My fears are more that some set of abstract circumstances and conspiracy would lead me to be put in jail for something that I had nothing to do with.  For example (and I know this must sound crazy) that someone would follow me, obtain something with my dna and use it to frame me in a crime.  My rational side says, come on why would some stranger want to spend their time getting you in trouble but then my mind comes up with a plethora of different reasons like, maybe they are crazy and this is how they get their kicks or maybe they want to cover up something they have done by placing blame on someone else.  I have been looking on OCD forums but it seems that this isn't quite like what other people are describing,  Does anyone have any idea what this is?  Thanks in advance for any help.

[WendyLady03]

I have the exact same problem, and it's horrible. I have anxiety and panic attacks, and when the anxiety gets bad is usually when I start having these thoughts. I too couldn't be around knives for fear I was going to hurt someone or myself. I've gotten better though with help from a therapist. Like PurellGirl said, it's most likely OCD. My therapist told me that people who have this fear, basically the fear of losing control and hurting someone, are the last people on earth who would do such a thing. The fact that you're so scared of the thoughts is a good sign, it means that you know it's ridiculous and it's something you would never do. I've also heard a lot of people say that if you are worried about going crazy, then you aren't. People that actually go crazy don't realize it's happening.


You should definitely watch that link, seeing that show made me feel about a million times better. Just know you're not alone, you're not crazy, and you're not going to hurt anyone.

[PurellGirl]

You are not going insane. This is most likely OCD.

Do you know in your heart that you are not capable of such evil acts? If so, then these are just thoughts that are trying to ruin your life!

Have you ever seen "The OCD Project" on VH1? There was a man on there who also believed his violent thoughts would actually happen.

If you want to watch, here's the link: http://www.vh1.com/shows/the_ocd_project/series.jhtml