Hiv Anxiety.!!!

[Seekingpeas]

I have been experiencing fatigue since quite some time now and it is constantly increasing. Never felt this fatigued. All I can think is HIV. What if I have contracted hiv on hospital bed ? I have been to hospital twice for once for ECG and once for echo. I am from India and here they don't change sheets between the patients. I never thought about needle laying on beds. But I can't seem to stop thinking about it. The assistant if the technician even admitted that she did not change sheet cleaned the bed after the patient. I am now worried what if the last patient had left needle on the bed and I was struck but it and now know it and have contracted hiv. I am extremely and fatigued had 3 rashes on body just after 2/3 weeks of the incident and now extreme fatigue. I just had hiv test 6 months back as I am always worried about it. Now my family won't allow anymore test. What should I do?

[Sara_MHModerator]

We are closing this thread. There have been suggestions on seeking professional help for your clinical anxiety and we feel this would be a great idea.

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[specialmom]

Hi there.  You clearly have pretty bad ocd and anxiety.  Your fears fall into the category of irrational.  I see that people already answered you about what the risks of HIV are.  This forum is NOT for that discussion. This forum is for the discussion of OCD.  Testing again for HIV will not help your OCD and in fact, simply feeds it more.  You need to address the OCD through therapy and probably medication.  Psychotherapy and medication are really the time tested approach if you receive a diagnosis of OCD which based on how you post, sounds likely.  Not a doctor, so that is between you and them. But you aren't ever going to move past this if you don't address the root problem. That's not HIV exposures that people tell you are no risks followed by endless unnecessary testing, but rather to treat the medical condition you do have, OCD.  https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/obsessive-compulsive-disorder/diagnosis-treatment/drc-20354438

[Seekingpeas]

I don't, I feel what if the patient before me was a druggie and had heart condition or has hiv and left his syringe there. Lots of scenarios run in my head that it is possible. Even I have ended up in emergency for these because of my anxiety attack and pains in chest. I don't have any heart condition.

[specialmom]

We're not going to continue talking to you about HIV.  That was answered. You need help with your OCD.  That's it.  Since you keep trying to gloss over that to continue your HIV discussion, I feel like there isn't much to say here.

[Seekingpeas]

I don't know then why I keep on getting rashes out of nowhere. Rashes have never happened before like this. It's just red colour patch with no itching and raised. Weired. These physical symptoms worries me and make me think about HIV. I also don't want to talk or think about HIV. I have waste my golden career making 6 years to thinking about HIV.