Me too. Me too! No more Anxiety, I sure hope.
I have this too - it started about half a year ago. I've received some therapy in an attempt to stem the concern, but sometimes worry still seeps through.
I know what you mean about not being able to shake fear though. It just sticks there and refuses to budge - ruining your social life in the process. In some ways it's almost worse than the virus we fear so much.
Happy New Year to everyone. I'm making a resolution to block out all anxiety for the next week. We'll see if I can keep it up.
It is actually nice to know that there are others out there with the same problem. As much as I tell myself how ridiculous I am being and that there are way worse problems out there, I just can't shake it when I get the fear in my head.
The doctor definitely changed his gloves. And even if he didnt (which he 100% did) HIV doesn't live outside its host, it needs a certain environment to attach. You definitely do not need to test, just try to move on and enjoy the new life of your child.
I'm in the same mold as you. I've lived for years with a constant fear. No risk situations after no risk situations. No matter how much I tell it to go away, it always seems to come back..
I used to have a huge fear of HIV. I was afraid to touch a public door handle. Then I "developed" some symptoms which made me do an HIV test. Waiting for the results made me so sick I stayed home for 4 days. And after I recieved the negative results I immediatelly thought the test was false neg. Then I thought my doctor didn't want to tell me the truth because he knew how afraid I was.
It is all in your head and you better talk to a therapist because when you get rid of one fear, another pops up. Thats the nature of this diesease.